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Things fall apart. In case you guys were wondering where I was [*squishes woodchoc_magnum*], I've been trying to put the pieces of my life back together. It's been emotionally exhausting but creepily okay in the end. The worst happened and it didn't. I'm ten kinds of confused right now.

So, first off: I must confess, I've been a terrible daughter and while I hate admitting this to my flist, because I love you guys and want you to think well of me, I've always tried to maintain complete and total honesty with you. Unlike RL, where I lie frequently, sometimes just for the hell of it, I don't do that online because it would cheapen our interactions and I desperately need this connection to much to do that. Situational ethics, would you say?

Important developments since we last met:

I've officially dropped out of uni. I was technically suspended for the last trimester but I chose to conceal that fact and pretend that everything was proceeding as usual. The plan, such as it was, involved faking it for the rest of the year and then slitting my wrists or something suitably dramatic and fatal. [Well, nothing beats James' driving into oncoming traffic, but females tend to be less flashy- as evidenced by Nishy's choice of sleeping pills]

Unfortunately, or fortunately, depending on your POV, the truth will out and it resulted in a predictably awful and hostile showdown with the parents. I suppose I was overconfident when assessing my ability to keep matters hidden from them.

So, yes, they were not impressed. To the point where they confiscated my house keys [Muke made a point of mentioning that he was also changing the security code, which is overkill, don't you think? If I can't enter the house on my own, I can't access the keypad anyhow] and told me that since they can't trust me with something of value to them, I'm not allowed to be in the house on my own. I leave at 7 am and can return around 6pm. *shrugs* Not much of a hardship.

What really pissed me off was that Muke took my phone. Now that was just- gah. Not cool. I know that they pay my phone bills, but honestly, I use my phone to run my life, it has constant memos going off to remind me to do every little thing, and I've saved tons of notes: quotes from tv, books I want to read, random's just bloody inconvenient and it feels like I'm missing a limb or something. *pines away*

I've left my laptop at Ma's so that they can't take that as well. I don't even know what to do with my evenings now. *sighs mournfully* Yeah, my parents hate my guts- mother can barely bring herself to talk to me, and Muke, well, I've been avoiding him for the last week or so- and I'm having laptop anxiety. Plus internet withdrawal issues. It's been hard coping without my internet fix. *clings to you all*

Anyway, I'm rather- panicky right now. I have no clue what's going to happen with my life, I don't know where I'm going or what I'm going to do. I don't want to do anything, that's why I've ruined my life, because of this damn apathy that rules me. I'm not good at anything, but more to the point, either I don't care enough to try to be good [as per my studies] or I freak out so much at the strange and unfamiliar that I cripple myself [with real jobs].

I wish I could live online. >_<


New ship: Sylar/Claire. *headdesk* How is it that my ships become more and more- er, dubious as time passes on? And the chicks remain relatively pure and moralistic and straight-forward [okay, so Hermione scarred a girl for life, that's terrible but I blame it on JKR's shoddy characterization], while the guys are...hmm. From Snape's 'technically a good guy but quite cruel and nasty' to Jareth's 'I steal children and make you go on perilous quests to retrieve them' to Sylar's, um...'I kill people. For fun'. Yeahhh...

Plus, with the first two ships, if you were so inclined, the characters could get together without too much dilemma [what's the stigma of a former teacher/student relationship or centuries-long age difference compared with dating a serial killer?] But with Sylar and Claire, you can't really see these two hooking up without either serious character tweaking or dub-con. Which really rules this pairing, like, 90% of the fics I've come across involve dub-con. So wrong...but I can't help it, these two fascinate me too much. Taking the kink of characters who hate each other a little too far, methinks...*eyeroll*

LotS spoiler woe


FFS, why bring KIDS into it at this point? I hate when TPTB use kids to cause my darlings more angst- X-files and Xena leap to mind first of all. It’s just crap, there is so much fodder for the plot, I don’t get why it’s necessary to wring Cara's non-existent ‘maternal instincts’ for greater drama. UGH.

I don't mean to harsh anyone's squee, it's just I don't like kids think there are lots of other plot points that could be developed and relationships that should be explored without resorting to this. I know a lot of fans will be happy and I'm glad for you, just...ack. To paraphrase Rachel from Glee, 'Maybe one of these days you'll be able to create high ratings moments and character developments without ruining my enjoyment of the show'.

PS. How old is Kahlan? I’ve been wondering. All this talk lately of how I enjoy don’t mind a good age difference…but it only works with younger female/older male couples. I’m not a fan of older women with younger men. Not that I have anything against it [I like Demi and Ashton] but I don’t ship it.

So, Richard’s about 20-23...‘What have you been doing the last 20 years?’ Kahlan asks despairingly of Zedd. And Darken Rahl is all, ‘For 23 years, I’ve slept peacefully…’ before his blissful dreams were rent by the resurfacing of the Seeker. Do we know how old Kahlan is?

Alice in Wonderland!

The reviews have been lukewarm at best, but I was psyched up for it.

The main reason I was so excited about this movie is because Alice goes back to Wonderland. I’m a little depressed by all the fantasy movies which end on such a final note where the kid has grown up, learnt some valuable lessons, becomes a better person and is too old for such flights of fancy anymore.

It always saddened me in the Chronicles of Narnia that the older children stopped believing in their adventures and acted like it was just make-believe. The idea that their ability to visit Narnia had an expiry date is just cruel.

Terabithia was a major disappointment all round- it wasn’t real at all, it literally was just their imagination. BORING. And then there was the tearjerker of an ending. *sniffles* Just such a buzzkill.

And of course, Sarah escapes the Labyrinth and I don’t know whether she’d ever want to return or if it's even possible, but even if she did, without a sequel, it doesn’t really matter. *comforts self with fanfic* 

Plus Peter Pan. *pouts* The whole point of the movie was that you need to grow up and exist in the real world rather than escape your responsibilities and real life in a magic world. Whatever. At least they didn't go with the alternate ending where Peter returns for Wendy only to find her all grown up and unavailable for further adventuring. [I did find it ridiculous seeing her give permission for him to take her daughter- yes, it's all good fun but it's dangerous and I don't see a responsible parent approving of such a venture]

With these movies, and many others, it’s about leaving the fantasy behind as they become adults and that doesn’t sit right with me. The moral of the story seems to be that adventures and fantasy are all good and well but part of being grown up is putting away such ‘childish’ things because adulthood stifles imagination or something. Bleurgh.

Which is why Alice is AWESOME. She grows up- she’s 19!- and she gets to return to this magical place and she has a destiny wherein she must fight against the oppression of its citizens and defeat the dragon and restore peace and prosperity to the land...usually that’s the role of the male protagonist, but nuh-uh, Alice gets to be kickass!

I love the contrast between Alice in her gorgeous dress and then Alice in chainmail.

The Cheshire Cat! *cuddles it* The BEST thing about the whole movie, without a doubt.

That was the one thing all of us kids were raving about afterward, how cute it was and how much we want one!

[Too bad Alan Rickman didn't voice the Cat, lol- okay, Stephen Fry did a great job, so yes, it's simply my bias speaking, I'm just sayin', for me, that would've been doubly awesome]

I love its movement, the way it twines sinuously through the air, how whimsical and adorable it appears...*sighs fondly*

Plus, the odd fixation it had with the Hatter's hat! Lol. 'Farewell, sweet hat...'

This is about as good as Alice gets. I kept expecting it to get better and it never did. There were so many things I found annoying:

# Alice insisting it was all a dream. At the beginning, yes, it's understandable, but halfway through, you just want her to get over it and deal already, damn it.

# Johnny Depp. Yes, I KNOW. How horrifying that I must criticize him, but that's the awful truth. I couldn't understand half of what his Hatter said. Yes, the Hatter was schizo and mentally unstable, I get that, but when he put on that bizarre accent, it was just impossible to hear what he was saying. I really wanted subtitles after the first few lines, it was really bad.

# Anne Hathaway. I was pleased she played the White Queen, but what a turn-off, with the endless airs and graces of her cringe-worthy, OTT performance. I thought the wafting around with hands pretentiously raised was a mere front when she was with her courtiers because of the way she looked around warily and then dropped the posing to run to the dog. Except later on, she never dropped it again, and it made me want to slap that languid composure out of her.

# Alice refusing to step up to the Chosen One role. *sighs* I know, it's perfectly understandable that she wouldn't want to fight a monster but she's the bloody heroine of the movie and I wish she'd been more assertive about it, instead of having to be herded into place at the appropriate moment.

# The not!epic battle with the Jabberwocky. The special effects were awful- it didn't even look like she was striking anywhere near the beast. And the whole thing about 'six impossible things before breakfast' fell flat for me. I know the intention behind it- she musters the belief that she can kill it and she does, but it lacked impact for me.

# The fetterwacking. No. Just- no.

# Alice did the thing that most annoys me about Harry Potter- insisting they're not the hero of the story but then making others bow to their will and forcing them to follow their ill-thought-out, near-suicidal plans. You gotta pick one or the other, accept the responsibility [something Harry fails at, big-time] or pipe down and let other people handle it. I didn't see what was so special about Harry just having to stand there and die and getting this ridiculous deus ex machina with coming back to life, and although Alice did more than he did- I'll give her props for slaying the monster, it was a big deal and more impressive than EXPELLIARMUS- it's not anything that required a damn Prophecy over the issue. Anyone else could've done the same feat.

For once, I would like to see a prophecy about a Chosen One where that character EARNS the right to be considered special and wonderful and unique, instead of being Joe Average and succeeding in a task because the story demands it, rather than because they earned that victory or were competent enough to realistically win the day.

I’m also a little disappointed about Alan Rickman. He was barely there. I know the Caterpillar wasn't supposed to be a major character, but still. I couldn't help hoping, which I guess was my first mistake.

Also, apparently they were going to composite his face in somehow, but decided not to in the end. *sighs* I mean, the voice is enough, I mean, holy crap, you guys should know by now that I would do ANYTHING that voice commanded me to, but I prefer it accompanied by his FACE, y’know? It’s a bit random seeing it come from some weird creature thing. *pouts*

I was amused when both my cousins leaned in to ask me if that was Snape as soon as he started talking! He's so well-known for his vocals, lol. And I got a kick out of him referring to Alice as 'stupid girl'.

Alice: I need your help. I don't know what to do.
Caterpillar: I can't help you if you don't know who you are, stupid girl.
Alice: I'm not stupid! My name is Alice. I live in London. My father was Charles Kingsley, he had a vision that stretched halfway across the world and nothing ever stopped him. I'm Alice Kingsley.
Caterpillar: Alice at last. You were just as dimwitted the first time you were here...

So Snape-ish! Bwahaha. :D Especially the way he kinda goaded her about not being the real Alice and later confirming she actually was- because he was kinda prodding her into action and where's the fun in revealing the truth when you can tug at people's strings?

I will say that the ending was pretty decent. The Caterpillar returning as a butterfly, hee, even though he didn't speak. And she greets him as Absalom, so this time she didn't dismiss it as a dream, I liked that.

When she decided to return to the 'real world', I was so dismayed- because what was waiting for her? Marriage to a disgusting slobbery dude ['Ranga!' one of my cousins jeered] with digestive issues? Or living off relatives as the poor unwanted relation for the rest of her days? No way, stay in Wonderland!

But then she forges her own destiny and goes off to discover herself and make her own path and it was a pretty great note to end on. Even if it's soooo unrealistic, wtf, as if a chick would be allowed to act as a business partner and go off to negotiate and whatnot, but oh well, I want to pretend I don't regret paying money for this, okay?


I watched a few of Mia Wasikowska’s eps from In Treatment this week. She’s a really talented actress [sooo much better in this than Alice, I gotta say]. The whole ep is structured around two characters sitting in a room...just talking. No special effects, not even that much music, no real action...and it’s still utterly compelling. She gripped my attention from the first moment she stalked into the room and flung herself down on the couch, and I couldn’t stop watching her. She’s just so expressive and really something amazing to watch in action.

Oh, and you come across fandom in the most random places! In one of her sessions, Sophie brought in her diary to shed light on herself as a kid. ‘Dear Hermione,’ she reads, explaining, ‘I pretended that I was writing to Hermione Granger...’ :D Just like me with Xena! Oh, yeah, I totally used to make-believe that Xena was my friend...

And her psychologist has no clue, lol. ‘Who’s that?’
Sophie gapes. ‘You know, from Harry Potter. Tell me you’ve read those... *gapes* Are you insane?!’
Paul shrugs. ‘Just haven’t gotten around to it yet.’
‘They’ve been out for ten years!’
‘I know, I know...’
‘I’ll bring you my set next week.’
‘That’s not necessary, my kids have them.’
‘They’ve read them?’
‘Uh huh, and they really love them.’
‘Maybe you’re not such a fucked-up parent’. *snickers*

Anyway, back to the session and its revelations:

‘This diary is a gift. It’s a real clue to who you are. There you are in 4th grade, already pulling away from your world. You’re establishing a relationship with somebody who cannot let you down, Hermione...’

That kinda resonates. I don’t have anything like Sophie’s issues, but I can relate to that. I’ve always been more comfortable with fictional characters than real people. They follow certain rules and you can count on them. It’s just so much safer than the scary unpredictability of other people, who always break my heart and leave me in the end. [Yes, I have abandonment issues, how did you know?]


Who’s giving the new Doctor Who a chance? I gotta say, I’m less than impressed. I fell for Nine, in all his angsty neurotic glory...

I know Ten was a ball and just so much fun, but what can I say, the broody, damaged types do it for me. :P *luffs Nine*

And now we have Eleven…who looks like a schoolboy, I mean, really? Barely looks like he's out of his teens, he so cannot carry off that suit without looking like a kid playing dress-up. Still, his side-kick’s gorgeous. I’m so tempted just for the eye-candy, but…I have this ridiculous tendency to get emotionally invested without my say-so and I’ve danced this number too often to risk my heart when I know it ain’t gonna have a happy ending. I hate the 'revolving door' cast for this series and I don't know if it's worth it to watch in case I get attached and then weep buckets when they get swapped out for a new pair.

Oh, I don’t knoooow. *vacillates*



Make my mind up for me?


30 Day meme: snurched from labrt2004
Day 07 → A photo that makes you happy

Ugh, I'm so bitter about not getting to go to the most recent con, but this pic with Christopher Heyerdahl was the highlight of last year.



Tagged by dragonladyk
1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next 4 sentences on your LJ along with these instructions.
5. Don't you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest.
6. Tag five people

The Iron King

'That he caved to your demands suggests he may be spending too much time with mortals, learning their ways and capricious emotions. It is time he remembers how to be fey.'

I swallowed, 'But what about Ethan?'

'I know not.'

The Strangely Beautiful Tale of Miss Percy Parker

Darkness was behind. In the sunlight ahead, out on the rocks, a figure reached toward her in anguish.

“No.” She shook her head. “Don’t take me just yet; give me one more hour…”

“Your time has come, love,” said the eerie man and his cold hand seized her shoulder to lead her into the darkness.



So funny! This dude's impersonation of Alan Rickman is just spot on and hilarious. *gigglefit* ^_^

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Date: 2010-03-16 12:16 am (UTC)
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The Cara spoiler is all kinds of WTF. Way to screw up my personal canon, show! :( I hope it turns out alright in the end, like for some reason she doesn't actually have a kid, idk. Because it messes with her character arc. Of all the shitty things that have happened in her life, they choose a random baby plot to create angst from? rly now.

PS. How old is Kahlan?
In the books she's like mid-twenties, I presumed? She's probably said it somewhere.

I’m not a fan of older women with younger men.
I'm the opposite :D If it's like, up to 10 or so years difference I think it's well hot.

Ehh...I'm not gonna watch Doctor Who this season. I loved Ten too much :(

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Date: 2010-03-16 12:55 am (UTC)
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I'm glad you're not into that idea! *fingers crossed it's a false alarm* I've just rarely seen the baby plot carried out well on tv. Tolerable, perhaps, but never really well done. It was marginally passable with JJ, but I'll never forgive the writers for making WILL her babydaddy. Honestly. *shakes head*

Of all the shitty things that have happened in her life, they choose a random baby plot to create angst from? rly now.

EXACTLY. I think her life has sucked enough that foisting a rape!baby on her.

I get what the writers were trying for- it's like Mordred in Merlin, do you kill a kid for the monster he might become? Now here's Cara and Rahl's offspring and there's potentially conflict between him and Richard if the kid turns out to be evil...but leaving that aside, Cara's gonna suffer and I am NOT ON BOARD with this plan.

Just imdb'd Craig and Bridget- she's a year older than him! No wonder I never bought these two as a couple!

Tab's birthday isn't up, though. *kicks IMDB*

I’m not a fan of older women with younger men.
I'm the opposite

Hee! Well, for me, it's about living vicariously through the ladies, so I prefer ones who are closer in age to me. Plus, a lot of young men tend to be impatient, illogical idiots ruled by their impulses [hee, I impress myself with the alliteration!], so I go for the older men.

'k, so one vote against DW. I'm gonna wait and see, because at the moment, I'm not so into the characters. The chick works as a kissogram...I mean, wtf?! is this supposed to show us how independent and liberal and modern she is?!

ETA. Sorry for the excessive editing! Think I'm done...
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Date: 2010-03-16 12:26 am (UTC)
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I'll give 11 one chance, maybe 2, but no more. His face kinda weirds me out a little bit, I can admit it.

Oh Annie, I dont know what to say about the rest. While I surely never want to be overdramatic, I am so sorry all of this is happening to you and that you cant go off and explore things so you can find out what you're into....that's what college was about for me and it was a totally awesome experience. Again, I'm sorry everything is going down like this. I've misssed you around, I should've dropped a line.

I really like In Treatment.....I've only seen it a few times but I think its a great show.

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Date: 2010-03-17 05:55 am (UTC)
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He does have rather a weird face, doesn't he? I tend to be influenced by my flist's opinion, so I'll wait and see what you make of it and then decide whether or not he's worth my time. First impression's not to impressive, though, gotta say.

Thanks for the sympathy and comfort, I seem to need a lot of it from you, don't I? *sighs* I don't know why I keep sabotaging my life like this...gah, gotta turn over a new leaf, it's just- hmm. Yeah. Let you know how that goes. Everyone around me [well, you guys and my cousins and aunt and grandmother, anyway, lol] believes I'm this awesome person that can do anything and I'm still waiting for that to happen.

I love In Treatment! Sophie's eps, anyway, I don't watch the others. I think Mia just rocks so hard, and the therapist is fantastic! I wish I had him, I'd be sure to be cured and better in no time, lol. *hugs* I've missed you, I'll try harder to keep up with you, it's just been sucky lately but I'm happy to be back. ^_^

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Date: 2010-03-16 12:35 am (UTC)
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I'm not sure how old Kahlan is, but in the first book she's decribe as in her mid-twenties, and about the same age as Richard but I think I remember in the second book something about him being older.

About the spoilers, IKR! wtf, that doesn't happen in the books! Actually what I remember of Mord-siths, childrens and Darken Rahl from the books is nothing like that, but i don' know if you read the books or if you plan to, so i will keep my mouth shut.
Sometimes I wish I could stay away from the internet spoilers...

As for Alice in Wonderland
Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast. I'm still in love with that quote... and the Cheshire Cat, I'm in love with him too!!

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Date: 2010-03-16 01:30 am (UTC)
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[Icon love! Was that in your post? I don't remember seeing it...*snurches*]

Oh, thank you for that! I really could not be bothered scouring the books to find the exact quote, so that helps. :D

OMG OMG OMG. *rages* I'm glad you're not cool with the spoiler either, I really hate what's going to happen and I don't want to be fair or consider how it might be good character development or ripe with plot drama potential because it SUCKS. I know wanting to cuddle Cara and protect her from emotional pain isn't a good enough reason to strike it down, but it sucks in ten different ways. Just- ugh.

I'm a spoiler whore, so if you want to bring up the books, it's fine. I've read the first and the third and fourth. I started out with BotF because I wanted to read about the OT3! :D

Sometimes I wish I could stay away from spoilers...

Hmm, I think differently- I need to know in advance, so I can prepare. I mean, it doesn't stop me from weeping buckets when characters that I know are going to die end up dying, but...I'd be a bigger mess if it was sprung on me unawares, y'know?

Oh, I think it's a great line, don't get me wrong, I was just underwhelmed by its usage in the movie. She's fighting a monster and kind of chilling and monologuing to was weird and not very inspiring at all.

he Cheshire Cat, I'm in love with him too!!

*starts fanclub*

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Date: 2010-03-16 04:52 am (UTC)
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*creeps and jumps in*

Indeed, in the books Cara explains to K that if a child was concieved from his rapings that he killed the Mord-Sith after killing the baby.

Cara heaved a sigh, realizing that Kahlan wanted to hear it all. "Darken Rahl had a temper. A sick temper. He crushed the girl's windpipe with his bare hands after he had made her watch him .. . well, watch him kill her son. When ungifted offspring came to his attention it often made him angry, and then he did that."
Kahlan let her hand fall away from Cara's arm.
Cara's eyes came up; the calm had repossessed them. "A few of the Mord-Sith suffered a similar fate. Fortunately, I never came to be with child when he chose me for his amusement."

*sidles out*

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Date: 2010-03-16 01:06 am (UTC)
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I loved Alice, period. :D

Love Ten and will give Eleven a chance but Ten is MY Doctor. :D

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Date: 2010-03-16 01:12 am (UTC)
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Okay, okay, so I was super-critical, but it was okay. I really liked Helena Bonham Carter. I ended up sympathizing with her, at the end, when her right hand man tried to kill her and she was just shocked and horrified. After that scene where she was snuggling up to him, I couldn't see her as complete and utter evil, I felt a tinge of pity.

Hmm, so far, one vote for and one against Eleven...

Ten is MY Doctor. :D

Lol, you're welcome to him! I'll keep Nine. *cuddles him possessively*

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Date: 2010-03-16 03:01 am (UTC)
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*squish* I was starting to wonder if you'd been abducted by brain sucking aliens, actually.

You do realize that this giving up on everything talk makes me want to kick your butt, yes? I want you to step up and live your life, you're one of the strongest people I know, even when you don't realize it, I just want you to champion yourself a little more. *poke* No dying.
...But right now I'm too busy being overjoyed that you're back to say much. *tacklehugs* So. Distractions away!

WTF LotS? That's... bizarre. Like, really bizarre. About Richard & Kahlan, I can buy that they love each other, and they're a pretty ship. I'm not completely sold because I haven't seen all the eps yet. Well, that and so far I've kept watching just to see Cara and Kahlan kick butt, which they do. Awesomely.

I haven't seen the new Alice in Wonderland, I just don't like Johnny Depp or Burton. I know, I know that's like omg!fandom-treason!1!! but I can't bring myself to, I find them over-rated and just... a bit too weird for me. Which is saying a lot .*shrug*

Okay, and last thing: Doctor Who.
How is it that you finally watch it and I'm not even around to gloat!? What is this? xD
I'll gladly admit to loving both Nine and Ten. Ten just a teensy bit more because he's so ridiculously adorable, and also because Tennant is gorgeous, but I love Nine quite a bit so it really just depends what day you catch me on. As for Eleven? Meh. I mean yes, I kinda want to see the new companion, I'm stuck on Doctor/Rose OTP and I doubt that's going to change. And also, yes, Eleven looks like he's playing dressup and is going to get shouted at and/or sent to detention at any moment, so that kinda blows credibility.
Also, geronimo? Really? *headdesk*

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Date: 2010-03-22 10:03 pm (UTC)
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Bwahahaa. I wish the goblins aliens WOULD take me away...

Lol! I love your pep talks! They're so matter-of-fact and brisk and 'off your ass, stop with the self-hating and recognize the inner awesome'. Oh, you. Don't know what you see in me, but I believe in you, so it must be there. And I will seek to unearth it.

Speaking of seeking...YOU WATCH LOTS?! I've been babbling about it the past few weeks and not a PEEP from you! Oh, I'm so glad you're into it, and onto the second season, seriously, how amazing is Cara? I gave up on season 1 after six eps, just when it was about to get good, I realize in hindsight. From Denna onwards, it became increasingly worthy of being fangirled, and with the addition of Cara...*dies of squee*

Lol, not liking Burton/Depp isn't the hugest fandom betrayal. If I was a PotC groupie, sure, I'd be horrified, but I have a passing fondness for him and that's about it- no rabid love here. I'm just disappointed because I heard good things about him and it just fizzled out for me. A big gigantic MEH for me, really.
Whoa, whoa, whoa- they're too WEIRD for you? *brain sputters to a halt* If explorers stranded on a plateau where they routinely encounter dinosaurs, spatial and temporal anomalies, prehistoric cultures and all sorts of weird beasties and phenomena is just fine and dandy, but those two are too weird...*gigglesnort* Does not compute!

Re: DW- I've been a casual viewer post Nine. I only got into DW for Nine and once he was gone, so was 70% of my love for the show. Replacing the actor does nothing for me. And then when Rose was gone, yeah, I was done. Now that all that history is done with and there's a brand new Doctor and Companion, I'm of two minds whether to give it a go...but I kinda think there's no point if it's only gonna last a season or two, y'know? Plus, the whole Kissogram thing bugs me. Talk about weird. *snorts* From Martha's overqualifications to this, righty-o, I supposed to admire how modern and liberal she is? I think not. But she is pretty...*iz tempted to give in*

Geronimo- tell me that's not his new catch-phrase, PLEASE... *shudders*

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Date: 2010-03-16 03:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

Oh lovely, I don't know what to say about the RL stuff. I feel like I'm missing something, though. You dropped out, and now you aren't allowed into your house?

As for what to do now - do you have any achieveable dreams? Maybe work for a bit doing something easy and then go travelling? Even just community work to keep yourself busy. I have full confidence that you will find something.

About Alice - I totally agree. Cheshire was my favourite part of the MOVIE, everything about the way he moved and spoke and thought was so ~squee~ worthy. The six impossible things before breakfast didn't really work for me either.

~squishes again~

Take care of yourself.

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Date: 2010-03-18 11:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh, the issue is that I dropped out but didn't tell my parents and acted like I was still enrolled. *shrugs* It was awful but I'm done apologizing. I did a bad thing but I have to move on before I have no self-respect left at all.

Thanks for the confidence, hon, I need some of that in myself. The problem's that I don't think I'm really good at anything- and that's not a self-deprecating thing, it's simple fact. I have all these flisters who are so smart and dedicated and hard-working, then there's me...I want to be more like you! *envies*

Cheshire was my favourite part of the MOVIE, everything about the way he moved and spoke and thought was so ~squee~ worthy.

It was all good- I've never had that kind of reaction before; usually, it takes me a while to warm up to a character before I become a giddy fangirl who flails at every nuance of expression and phrase that leaves their lips and twitch of the limb, but with the Cheshire Cat, it was literally love at first sight- how utterly novel for me!

The six impossible things before breakfast didn't really work for me either.

It felt very disconnected from the battle [didn't help that the sfx sucked- Alice's swings with the blade didn't look like it was aimed anywhere NEAR the jabberwocky]- it should've been a grand moment full of tension and nerve and escalating into greatness and triumph but yeah, just fell flat.


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Date: 2010-03-16 06:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
i think your family finding out is a good thing. once the dust settles, i think you'll find that everything is a LOT less stressful/nasty/confusing/anxiety-making

*pets and hugs you*

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Date: 2010-03-17 12:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Hmm, my aunt said the same thing, but I was happier the other way- I didn't have to do anything to fix it, which now I do...*sighs* Taking responsibility for my life, yikes. *cringes* Just tell me what I should do, anyone...*whimpers and clings to you*

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Date: 2010-03-16 09:59 am (UTC)
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I'm glad you're back, but I just want to give you a big hug.

Things sound really fucked up, and I'm sorry. What are the job opportunities like down your way? I mean, it's not for everyone, but office work can get you by. You could even save enough money to move out of home, if you wanted to - you'd probably be a lot happier, I know I was when I moved out. You're not a kid anymore, you know? It almost sounds like they're grounding you and that's not cool.

Anyway, if I were you I'd check it out, see what's out there. You could do that for awhile and go back to uni, if you wanted to. I mean, I'm 25 in a couple of weeks and thinking about going to uni for the first time, so you could always take a few years off and then do it again, if you wanted to.

I'm really sorry. I feel so bad for you. :( *squish*

I haven't seen Alice yet - I was supposed to go and see it with a friend but she piked out. The Cheshire Cat does look cute though. I don't, maybe it wouldn't have the same impact for me because I was never really into the original story as a kid... but I am a Tim Burton fan, so... I'm torn. I'm really, really torn.

Plus I hate 3D, so maybe that's enough of an excuse to wait until video. :P

As for Doctor Who - I've never watched it in my life but that red haired chick in the pictures is really pretty!

Hope you feel better honey. xoxoxo

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Date: 2010-03-18 10:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
*accepts hug and clings tight* Especially since things went from bad to worse last night. My life, it sucks royally to be me.

I'm really discouraged, though. My aunt suggested doing a TAFE course and I was kinda into that idea because they have Centerlink-subsidized courses and you still get the allowance, but I can't find anything to do. It's all like, nursing, agriculture, managment, furniture making...blech. Nothing remotely me at all. Sooo screwed.

Oh, so you didn't do uni after high school? What did you do? I'm just curious- my whole life, uni was the ultimate goal and I did it 'coz it was expected, and to hear you avoided that path makes me curious how you bucked tradition.

The Cheshire Cat is the most awesome character ever. I it so! Don't let me put you off entirely, I think if you go in with low expectations, you'll be pleasantly surprised. I went in with high expectations and got disappointed, so yeah. But Helena Bonham Carter did a great job as the Red Queen. I'm surprised at how much I ended up liking her- or at least enjoying her performance.

OH GOD, 3D. My ears hurt so much afterwards. I put the 3D glasses over my own glasses and it just weighed me down. Ached by the end of it. *pouts*

The redhead is pretty, I agree- but the kissogram thing weirds me out. I am biased, I like my chicks to be professionals in certain areas- like scientists or FBI agents, etc. Kissograms, no, just- no. I'm disturbed.

*hugs* Thanks for caring, bb.

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Date: 2010-03-16 02:14 pm (UTC)
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YOU'RE BACK! :D *hugs*

I know that feeling of apathy was not my friend last year, this year I'm hoping to kick it to the curb a little. I almost failed everything too. :/ And yes, the internets is fun but I don't think it helped me enjoy i'm trying to keep things in perspective.

I think that getting one or even two small part-time jobs, say one in a retail store (clothes/electronics/books whatever where you can get discounts!) and a food shop/cafe, would be good, they can give you smaller hours say only a 3-4 hour shift 2 days a week etc. Then you won't have the problem of feeling so bored/swamped as I did going straight into full 8hr + days. :)

Heroes I can totally see the appeal of Claire/Sylar, yes its twisted but its definitely hot. But with the first season I saw I am a more Peter/Claire person..

Doctor Who- I will probably give it a chance. I need the Doctor in my life, even though his appearance is so awful. Kid + guy that doesn't look that appealing to me. He'll probably grow on me...I've seen him in one episode of Secret Diary of a Call Girl (with ROSE!) and he could act, and I'm relying on the fact that Doctor Who casting director's generally seem to know what they are doing. *fingers crossed* And yes, she is damn prettyyy.

Is that you in the picture with Christopher Heyerdahl? If so, you are SO gorgeous! ^^
What con was that? And which is the "latest con" you missed out on?

OH! That guy did a GREAT impression of Alan Rickman! :o How did he do that...

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Date: 2010-03-18 10:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I almost failed everything too. :/

*squishes* It sucks being in this boat, huh? I hope you do better this time round- what are you studying?

And yes, the internets is fun but I don't think it helped me enjoy life

*gapes* BB, if the internet doesn't make you happy, you're doing it wrong! :P I wanted to use this icon with the text 'work is for people without internet access' but it struck a little too close to home...

You have some pretty good ideas there- only problem is that I can't handle people. I suck at customer service, I get anxiety attacks. Okay, not literally, but I feel really terrible. I used to work at a fish-and-chips shop and just couldn't hack it. *shudders* But I like the idea of the book-shop, me and books are best buds!

Heroes I can totally see the appeal of Claire/Sylar, yes its twisted but its definitely hot. But with the first season I saw I am a more Peter/Claire person..

When it started out, I was interested in Peter/Claire but then the incest factor that was later revealed squicked me out. At one point, Sylar was supposed to be a Petrelli and her uncle and I just threw my hands up in disgust and gave up- but then it turned out to bea lie so now I can ship them without any issues. Well, apart from the serial killer

But the SHOW WENT THERE! If they hadn't had that scene in...what was it- Pass/Fail? With him subduing her and kissing her? Come on! Like that wasn't meant to make us ship them!

I've seen him in one episode of Secret Diary of a Call Girl (with ROSE!) and he could act

Wow, fandom collision! The upcoming newest Doctor and the former Companion, coolness! And look, I'm sure the guy can act, that was never my issue, it's his looks- seriously, the 12th Doctor is going to be literally 12 years old at this point!

But yeah, I'll give it a shot for the eye candy... :P

Indeed it is me with Chris Heyerdahl- and you are very sweet, thanks, hon, what a flattering compliment! *squishes*

That was the Armageddon expo that's on every October at the Melb Convention Center. And the con I missed was the week before last which had all the Stargate people, apparently- RDA, Michael, the ladies...*criz* I don't want to think about it. >:[

THANK YOU. You're the first person to comment on the Alan Rickman impersonation, and I thought it was so awesome and you're the only one to appreciate it so far!

Seriously, I was wondering if he was just miming over a recording or something, it was eerily accurate!

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Date: 2010-03-16 02:27 pm (UTC)
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You know, I have abandoned LOTS until summer, 'cause of the insane hour that is passing(1 am on sunday, wtf??) and the story line? getting weirder and weirder, so much that I don't even now what is happening.

I am going to try the new doctor who series. even if the new doctor is not exactly what I had in mind(older, less boyish, more darker than 10) Anyways, Space just announced the new season this weekend, and it's on a Saturday night, so at least it's on a weekend.

But yes, I am less than impressed.

I do hope that it will get better for you in RL *hugs*

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Date: 2010-03-16 11:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Hee, I'm lucky to have found it fairly convenient to d/l the eps, so I've been able to keep up.I don't think the storylines are THAT weird [what season are you on? Both are equally crazy, imo!] It might be best to marathon it in the summer, though, 'coz it might make more sense if you watch it all together and the plot arc's fresh in your head.

older, less boyish, more darker than 10

*sniffles* That was my Nine. *misses him* He was a BADASS. Eleven looks like he'd be hard-pressed to succeed against a chihuahua [though to be fair, they can be vicious little things]

Hmm, five votes for, one against. Iiiiinteresting...

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Date: 2010-03-16 10:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Awwh hun! I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through twenty shades of RL hell at the moment. I don't know the details but clearly uni wasn't for you and that's fine. I understand why you're panicking over what to do in RL now though. Eeek. God it would be so much nicer if we could live online where the only thing we had to worry about is whether our OTPs are every going to get together .....


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Date: 2010-03-16 11:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thanks, bb. My parents were so horrified at me being a failure [being the only child, all their hopes and expectation were pinned on me] that it's comforting to hear you sound all supportive and tell me it's okay. *huggles*

The problem is that I have no clue what to do with my life. People expected me to go to uni,so I did, but I couldn't hack it. And since that's fallen through,I'm all, 'crap,what now?' *sighs*

it would be so much nicer if we could live online where the only thing we had to worry about is whether our OTPs are every going to get together ....

*squishes*LOL, that's my idea of heaven right there!

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Date: 2010-03-17 08:00 pm (UTC)
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I was wondering where you'd got to. Awww *huggles*. Sorry about the hard times you're in.

I'm trying to brainstorm ideas for you. Firstly, can you move in with your grandma or the nice cousins?

I could see you being an excellent Writing teacher. Or maybe Traditional Dances? (I seem to remember you posted a video of you and the cousins a while back, performing a complicated-looking and intricate traditional dance...?) Maybe there's a dance company/learning center hiring instructors?

I still don't know what job I would *want* to have. I have a secretarial job and it is very boring. But with no other ideas in mind, there's no way I'm leaving that job because with the state of our economy, I'd never find another. Which makes me appreciate my boring secretarial job....hmm. (I know I talk in circles, I'm sorry!)

OK, try this: close your eyes and picture yourself in every career you've ever imagined you would like to have (even for just half a second once upon a time). A lot of the images will quickly get blurry around the edges...but there's that one image standing out more can see yourself in sharp clarity.... What job do you have?

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Date: 2010-03-22 10:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Hee, hee, you should be a careers adviser! Thanks for the suggestions, although I don't think I'm really qualified to do either.

I kinda envy you that secretarial job- it may be boring, but that's what I want. A nice, safe, easy job that I could do in my sleep and am totally comfortable doing and don't have panic attacks over, y'know? Boring and predictable and stable, that's what I would be grateful to have.

I want to be a librarian! But there aren't any courses I can take or qualifications I can go for. *sighs*

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Date: 2010-03-17 08:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
*whoosh* Me again. Heh. So, I signed out and went about some other business, when suddenly I thought--

Disneyland Australia!!! If there's ANYplace you could work that's like getting to live in Wonderland, that would be it. So, I Googled (actually, I Yahoo!ed, but whatever) but it doesn't exist. Oh, there are concept drawings, sure, but nobody seems to have very high hopes. No! *sad*

But you know-- Movie World does not look too bad as a next best option:

I don't know where in Australia you live, so relocation could be necessary. (With the current tension with your immediate family, perhaps space would be good?) They have positions vacant:

And they have a Harry Potter store. Just sayin'.

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Date: 2010-03-22 11:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Bwahaha! *squishes* I have this huge smile on my face, that's just hilarious. First the whole Disneyland Australia thing that turned out not to exist, and also this:

Googled (actually, I Yahoo!ed, but whatever)

Because IKWYM. Googling something...that rolls off the tongue. Yahooing...uh, no.

Also, using the Harry Potter store as a lure to get me to Movie World. LMAO. I It's in another state and while I would like to get away from the parents, my cousins and aunt and grandmother are too awesome for me to leave behind- even assuming I would be capable of packing up and moving off! But it was a great daydream, that!

*squishes* As your icon says, you are brilliant!

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Date: 2010-03-22 09:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I love you would you please go see a doctor.

This kind of apathy in the face of getting suspended out of uni isn't a character flaw or being a shitty person or whatever God-awful thing I can only imagine your family has said. We have officially crossed the line to the point where an imbalance of brain chemicals is a distinct possibility. And if your brain chemistry is wonky, then expecting you to function "normally" is like expecting Windows to run on a scratched harddrive: completely unreasonable.

Please, please, please I am BEGGING you, go see a doctor now. Even a homeopath will do if you have something against regular medicine but see SOMEONE.

And get a job and move out on your own away from those people because I don't think they deserve you but go see a doctor, please, please, please.

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