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Gosh, it was hard trying to think of items for the list that didn't include fandom. My life, so boring! 

Happy list of yayness

For the first time ever, I managed to have KFC three days in a row. My cousin, my mother and then my aunt/Ma shouted me. ^_^ Well, it’s not doing my health any favors, but my ‘diet’ makes me happy.
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My psychologist. My first session last week went well. I turned up, intending it as a one-time only, but she convinced me to return for the next five government-funded sessions and I figured why the hell not? It’s not like I’m doing anything else with my life, right? And discussing my lack of direction atm and the utter failure I am is oddly comfortable when it’s to someone who’s paid to hear people whinge incessantly, I don’t feel bad when I know they’re getting compensated for putting up with me.
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I was wary when she told me we were going to have a talk, because those never end well. But we ended up eating junk food in a park and having a lovely chat!

We talked about the family situation and while it was going well between us before, it’s even better now that we’ve officially sorted out that we’re okay with each other. I apologized, she told me something I’ve never heard before-‘it’s all about you’ [!]- and that she’s put what happened behind us because she just wants to help me find something to do and get to a good place in my life. I never wanted to have this talk because I was afraid that deep inside, she was still seething with anger and resentment but it happened and ended so much better than I had thought possible!

There was also much fandom-y conversation. A lot of times in the past, she’s dismissed my interest in tv because it’s pointless and won’t get me anywhere, but we were in that park for a few hours and half the convo was about different shows. Castle, Mentalist, even Dollhouse and A Very Potter Musical, lol. [I have the songs on my phone and played them for her]

She showed interest, she indulged my fangirly side and I had a fantastic time. Such a mama’s girl! 

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Sucky list of suckitude

I broke a fingernail. :-[

I grow them out as long as possible- because I think they look cool that way...
 


...but when one inevitably breaks, then the rest of them need to be trimmed. And I hate how stumpy my fingers look with short nails!

Short being a relative term, I refuse to cut them at the same level or below than the length of my finger- I don't understand how people can have brutally short nails, it makes me wince. 
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*facepalm*
I shrieked and cowered no less than three times last night, shuddering and insisting that there was a mouse running loose in the house. My poor grandmother dutifully rose and beat around corners and under beds and in likely hidey-holes, but failed to turn up any hint of a rodent each time. It was completely embarrassing and yet I couldn’t suppress my squeals each time I saw a dark shape scuttling around, tail slithering behind it. *twitches*

I’m sure Ma thinks I’ve lost my mind, it undermines my claim to sanity, jumping at shadows but I know what I saw! What I think I saw…ugh.
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I absolutely loved this fantasy novel, the name of which shall not be revealed in case I inadvertently spoil one of you, and was so into the series that I contemplated buying the next book [or harassing the library into buying it for me].

When I spied it in Borders, I figured I’d take a peek at the final chapter to see if the chick ends up with the guy I wanted- well, win/lose. MAJOR loss. While they do hook up, and she even becomes pregnant, the very last words are ominous: ‘And then he knew no more’. Um, WTF? This is how it ends?

It could be in the less-scary ‘and then he fell asleep and knew no more til the following day when he woke up in bed with the Love of His Life’, but…considering he was in a duel where he sustained numerous wounds…and also the way it reminds me of this craptastic scene: ‘And then Snape moved no more…’ Yeah, depressing. It sucks so hard it reaches back in time to retroactively ruin my enjoyment of the first book. *pouts*
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Meme time:

Snurched from dragonladyk:
When you see this, post a poem to your own journal.

(a) Colours

When your face

appeared over my crumpled life

at first I understood

only the poverty of what I have.

Then its particular light

on woods, on rivers, on the sea,

became my beginning in the coloured world

in which I had not yet had my beginning. I am so

frightened, I am so frightened,

of the unexpected sunrise finishing,

of revelations

and tears and the excitement finishing.

I don't fight it, my love is this fear,

I nourish it who can nourish nothing,

love's slipshod watchman.

Fear hems me in.

I am conscious that these minutes are short

and that the colours in my eyes will vanish

when your face sets.

-Yevgeny Yevtushenko


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The Marry/Shag/Throw off a cliff Meme:

From mw48.

Marry- Bill Weasley
I’ve googled him and can’t find one definitive picture of this character. The internet offers me a variety of choices, some attractive, some…not.




Still, out of a series of unappealing choices, this dude would be the best of the bunch, I suppose. He’s supposed to be charming, competent and caring, isn’t he? A hard-working dude who's still adventurous and glamorous, I'm all over it. Marriage to him would be a much better deal than to Ron or the Terrible Twins, ugh. *stabs them*

Shag- Draco Malfoy



Way too young for me, but he’s attractive, I’ll give him that much. Even if his character ended up being a disappointment. Can anyone tell me what he was even doing during DH? Was he at Hogwarts under the DE regime or what?

Throw off a cliff- Sirius Black



Oh, definitely off a cliff, chomped to bits by sharks and ground into kibble for the bottom-feeders. Loathe this guy so much. Why, YES, I’m holding a grudge on Snape’s behalf, what of it? I may be biased, but his general conduct doesn’t speak very highly of him- this dude endangers everyone’s lives on several occasions, and wtf, he even ATTACKS RON AND INJURES HIM but nobody gives a damn and holds him accountable because- what? Oh, JKR tells us he’s a good guy and they don’t get held to the same standards as villains. They can hex people and be rotten vindictive bullies who commit attempted murder using their supposed best friend as the weapon with absolutely no remorse, but oh no, they’re still Good Guys. But if someone JKR hates does the exact same thing or anything ten degrees below this, we’re supposed to judge them for it and delight at them nearly getting killed or scarred for life or something.

/rant. I’m going to stop myself there or I’ll never stop harping on about her childish black-and-white view of the world and absolute failure to grasp the complexities of human nature, along with her pathetic excuse for a moral compass and-

-oh, right, I was stopping. *lips zipped shut* 
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From sunkrux.



Hermione

I would definitely marry her! What does Ron have to offer her that I can’t?

Well, besides possessing magic and also seven years of history where they bonded through surviving numerous near-death moments and banded together to defeat an evil wizard [even if it was ridiculously contrived and they displayed all the ingenuity of a lobotomized patient due to the horrifyingly crappy writing talents of JKR].

Also, children. I don't know if that would be a deal-breaker or not. *coughs* 'coz I so do not plan on ever having kids, kthxbai.

But at least I wouldn’t constantly insult her as a form of, IDK, demonstrating affection or refuse to make a move on her yet react with vindictive jealousy and making her cry when she so much as looks at another love interest.



And I share her love of books and the library, so we’d have that to bond over. :P

Snape



Totally shagging him. >:D

Seriously, I know the majority of the population don’t understand his appeal, but he is just mesmerizing to me. I am utterly bewitched and ensnared and so into him, it’s crazy.


I’d marry him, I love him so much, but I think I’d irritate him. And my skin isn’t thick enough to weather all the inevitable barbs and criticism he’d hurl at me as I attempt to forge some sort of emotional connection. I leave that to hardier types, like Hermione. :P

Roxton



Off the cliff! Look, this guy already literally fell off a cliff in the show and not only escaped unscathed, but with a really great hair-cut to boot!

From this:

To this:



Maybe the next dive off a cliff will also end up a blessing in disguise, like maybe Marguerite can drag him out this time, and they might get at least half an hour in private without a Momentus Interruptus.

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Vidspam:

TLW! *massive luff* It may have only lasted three seasons, but oh, there was an embarrassment of riches in regards to the ship. I had not lived til I saw my OTP taking a dip in a mud pool and then streaking through the jungle, lmao!


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Date: 2010-04-19 02:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mcgarrygirl78.livejournal.com
Hey Annie!

I'm glad you had a nice heart to heart with your mother and will talk more to the psychologist. I think it will be a good thing, even if its just to get things off your chest you just dont need nor want to carry anymore.

Ugh, rodents....I am so scared of rodents. We have a cat so we dont get them often but we live in row homes so we are sometimes at the mercy of icky nasty neighbors. So sometimes they run through and my cat catches them....she's totally useful that way.

KFC = win! I couldnt eat it that often but I'm craving it now, thanks to you : ) What are you, 20, 21? You still have a few years to do things like that so enjoy it.

I love your love of fandom, I really really do.

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Date: 2010-04-19 04:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] luxuria-oceanus.livejournal.com
I'm glad you're doing better, sweetums! *huggles* And that you're still as fandom obsessed as ever :-P that's why I lurve you!

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Date: 2010-04-19 06:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kat-rowe.livejournal.com
comfort food is comfort food *hugs you* there are worse things than KFC (you know, unless you're an artery, lol)

sounds like the thing with the psychologist is going well *hugs you* Take advantage of that resource while you have it, okay? *hugs you more*

good deal talking to your mother. i hope that rapport lasts

holy frack are your nails long. cut them, woman!!! *pets you*

yech, novels being screwed up at the ending sucks *kicks the writer and hugs you*

*totally agrees on the marry/shag/cliff picks*

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Date: 2010-04-19 07:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] weird-fin.livejournal.com
Sounds like a good time with your mother. :)

KFC for three days? YUM. I think I'd get sick of it after anymore than that though...

O_O
Your nails are not just long, they are enormously long compared the the majority of people! I've often wanted to try and grow mine that long or longer like those freaky people who sit around all day for the records. But it was just impossible to do because I played sports like tennis which you need a tight grip on the racket and at certain points your nail starts to dig into your palm. :/

But when I was off-season it was a bit better. Also I played on the red entou cas courts so when it was wet/windy the grit would stick to the ball and get lodge under my nails. Which felt horrible to play in!

My friend wanted longish claw like nails and liked how I was probably the one in my group to gorw my nails the most usually. Yes, i'd cut them every so often (because they often start breaking as soon as they get to the length I like and they'd look a bit short/stubby but I generally think my fingers look long enough. Plus, no one really looks at my hands in school more my face or what i'm saying or my shool work! ;D

It also gets harder/different to hold/write with pens or pencils at a certain point, and I've realised only recently that I have trouble/dislike it when they are longer and I have to travel on public transport a lot because I oftern have to hold onto the poles/hand rails and typing gets a bit awkward also, so I haven't been having nails the length I used to like getting them to. *pouts*

BTW where are the answers to my questions of the marry/shag/cliff meme? :P

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Date: 2010-04-19 07:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mw48.livejournal.com
Good to hear you had a positive talk with your Mum and that therapy is potentially helping?

LOL at the cliff, shag, marry thing. :)

and LOL at the nails thing - mine are really short. Product of playing violin and netball. I can't stand them long. ~hee~

~hugs you~

hope it all continues to get better and better.

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Date: 2010-04-19 05:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sunkrux.livejournal.com
And someone gave me crap about throwing Pete off the cliff. :-b LOL

Glad you and your mom patched things up. *hugs* I hope talking to the therapist helps you figure things out so you can set a goal for your life and achieve it. I think you'll do great things once you figure out what it is. *hugs*

As for the nails, I always keep my fairly short because I can't STAND them long. They scratch me or I'll poke myself in the eye or scratch a friend. So I keep them short. That and I can not STAND the noise of nails on keyboards. that Clackyclackyclackclack noise drives me buggy.

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Date: 2010-04-20 04:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dragonladyk.livejournal.com
YOU HAVE A PSYCHOLOGIST I AM SO EXCITED FOR YOU I AM LITERALLY GRINNING FROM EAR TO EAR I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU RIGHT NOW.

I love you. And I'm glad you and your mom had a nice chat.

Personally the phrase "it's all about you" sends me into a towering rage, but I've only ever heard it in the context of "you don't love anyone more than yourself/everything is all about you in your eyes/you've never truly shared your life with anyone" and the only thing that pisses me off more is "you're self-limiting yourself out of fear/taking that fear out on everyone." I've heard both often enough from people who have NO CLUE about what they're talking about that I'm pretty far into the misanthrope camp at the ripe old age of 24 and 80% sure that I don't want to marry ever because who wants to live with that kind of crap every day? NOT ME.

But anyway. Moving on.

I liked Sirius Black until Book Five. Until book five his actions could be excused as a youth to be ashamed of and a crappy situation, but Book Five flushed that. What a moronic douche.

Definitely marry Hermione. I want to be Hermione when I grow up if I can't be Paget Brewster.

Cool poem. ^^

DragonLady

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Date: 2010-04-20 09:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] woodchoc-magnum.livejournal.com
Glad everything is semi okay on the home front! *squishes*

For the first time ever, I managed to have KFC three days in a row.

You lucky bitch. Life is unfair! I'm on this stupid diet (which I'm completely not sticking to by the way, hello cake for smoko how I love thee let me count the ways) which prohibits the eating of KFC, and you're binging on it!

nd discussing my lack of direction atm and the utter failure I am is oddly comfortable when it’s to someone who’s paid to hear people whinge incessantly, I don’t feel bad when I know they’re getting compensated for putting up with me.

Well yay for that!

But we ended up eating junk food in a park and having a lovely chat!

Awesome!

I never wanted to have this talk because I was afraid that deep inside, she was still seething with anger and resentment but it happened and ended so much better than I had thought possible!

Oh yay! I'm so glad! :)

I grow them out as long as possible- because I think they look cool that way...

I'm the complete opposite - I cut them as short as possible!

I don't understand how people can have brutally short nails, it makes me wince. 

Again, complete opposite - I hate my fingernails getting too long, I cut them off once a week. Mine aren't painful though, but very short. My mother calls me a lesbian, just because she has super long nails! *eye roll*

My poor grandmother dutifully rose and beat around corners and under beds and in likely hidey-holes, but failed to turn up any hint of a rodent each time.

So it definitely wasn't a dream? Sometimes I have dreams where there are spiders crawling down my walls, and I wake up and fling the covers off and turn the lights on and stand there blinking for like a minute before I realise I was dreaming. *facepalm*

‘And then Snape moved no more…’

*blink*

Snape dies? Or... huh.

I love that you read the endings of books to make sure they turn out how you want them to. ROFL

I’m going to stop myself there or I’ll never stop harping on about her childish black-and-white view of the world and absolute failure to grasp the complexities of human nature, along with her pathetic excuse for a moral compass and-

*blinks again* Whoa. Poor JKR. But she's got like a trillion dollars, so I'm sure she's pretty cool. :P

Totally not surprised you would marry Hermione! LMAO

I am utterly bewitched and ensnared and so into him, it’s crazy.

I had totally picked up on that. :P

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Date: 2010-04-20 05:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fragilemorning.livejournal.com
Yay and Mommy-Daughter fandom bonding. I love it when that happens ^_^. I am glad the visits with psychiatric is working out. *hug*

So icons..do you still want 'em? :D

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Date: 2010-04-23 11:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sapphs.livejournal.com
Oh chica, I have missed out on SO MUCH of what is happening in your life. I'll try and catch up simply so I don't feel like such a failure. But you know if you want to chat via text or anything, I'm always happy to indulge, even if it's only fandom squee (of which there can never be enough in life, mmmhmmm).

*squishes you tightly* I'm glad seeing a professional is helping you. i don't think i'd have as much courage as you to go see one!

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