*hugs* Honey, your father may not physically abuse you and your mum, but darling, it sounds like he is emotionally abusing both of you, plain and simple. It's just as bad, if not worse than physical since it fucks up your self-esteem. So I'm not about to tell you how awful you are (cause you're so not) for not loving him or calling him dad. He doesn't deserve to be called dad as far as I'm concerned.
You are NOT weak for crying when he abuses you (that's what he's doing). Him being a hard worker should NEVER excuse his behavior of how he treats you and your mum. My dad was a hard worker and he never treated our family like that. You father is an abusive man emotionally. I'm going to guess he was probably abused by someone in his life and that's why he's continuing the cycle.
*hugs* I suggest you get out as soon as you possibly can. I'd also recommend seeking counseling to help you out. There is nothing wrong with staying in your room to avoid him since you're basically protecting yourself, which is a good thing to do. You are an awesome young lady and he's too ignorant to see it.
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You are NOT weak for crying when he abuses you (that's what he's doing). Him being a hard worker should NEVER excuse his behavior of how he treats you and your mum. My dad was a hard worker and he never treated our family like that. You father is an abusive man emotionally. I'm going to guess he was probably abused by someone in his life and that's why he's continuing the cycle.
*hugs* I suggest you get out as soon as you possibly can. I'd also recommend seeking counseling to help you out. There is nothing wrong with staying in your room to avoid him since you're basically protecting yourself, which is a good thing to do. You are an awesome young lady and he's too ignorant to see it.
I'm glad you have Netty. :D