Everything you've said is true. If someone told me the exact same story, I'd be advising them the same way. It's just so much easier for me to look at it objectively and say 'this is crap, don't put up with it' than it is to tell myself that and follow through.

It's pathetic, I know. I don't have many friends in RL at all [I can count them on one hand] so I think the problem is that I want to be able to point at someone and say, "I am worthwhile, look, here's a person that likes me' and if I cut ties with her altogether, then...I can't do that. Damn my insecurity.

The thing is, she wasn't always like that, she used to care about me and it's not just wishful thinking, but over the past few years, I've just started mattering less and less. If she'd been this way from the start, I'd never have been friends with her, but it happened gradually and now it's just- gah. *clings to internet*