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marguerite_krux ([personal profile] marguerite_krux) wrote2010-02-18 11:25 am

'...everything I've done, I've done for you...I move the stars for no one...'

RL whinge:

I just want to get this off my chest.

I think I’m holding on out of habit.

Katherine and I have been friends for about eight years. I love her…and I think that’s the problem. She tends to be dismissive of the people that truly care about her; once, she was complaining about some friends that ditched her and I tried to make her feel better.

‘I love you.’
‘Yeah, but that’s unconditional love, so it doesn’t count.’
>_<

It’s like the people that are difficult, that are ‘fair-weather friends’, that cause drama and conflict, those are the people she wants to make the effort for- like, because they make it hard, it must be worthwhile or something. People that just love her, well, they’ll always be around so why bother with them, right? No, literally, that’s what she told me- ‘You’re Annie, I know you’ll always be there’. Way to make me feel appreciated.

So it’s been a couple months since we’ve seen each other. I still have the Christmas presents I bought her and Jacob [her brother] and after I text her to see if I should just wrap them for their birthdays instead, we finally get a day sorted to meet up and exchange gifts.

Now, it’s February, so giving gifts may seem redundant, but a month isn’t really that bad, considering her track record.

What bugs me more is that she promised she’d give me my birthday present with the Christmas one- she told me ages ago that she got me a ring for my birthday. I didn’t really want more jewelry, but she insisted that for my 21st, she had to get something special. So, okay, cool.

Except my birthday was in JULY. And now, nearly seven months later, still nothing.

It’s in her room, somewhere. [Her room used to look like a bomb went off in there, so the ‘lost in my bedroom’ excuse rings true] I’ve seen her a few times over the past few months, been at her place a couple of occasions, and each time, she’s acted chagrined and assured me she’ll look for it.

Now she’s moved out of home and in a weird power play with her parents, she can’t go back home for the next few months. [Even though they’re not at home for a few weeks at the moment because they’re off somewhere, for work, I think]

And I just think- fuck the ring. It was never about the ring. It was about me wanting to feel like I matter to her, that she’d go to the effort of cleaning up her goddamn room to find a present she apparently already bought for me. I mean, the girl moved out of house, she cleared out most of her belongings, but she can’t use that opportunity to locate the damn thing?

I just feel so small and insignificant. She’ll go all out for her other friends, spending ages personalizing little knick-knacks for them, getting lavish gifts, taking them to concerts and all that, but Annie…well, she’ll be fine, she can wait, it doesn’t matter.

Even when we finally hang out after months of nothing- well, the girl’s got a life, you know, heaps of friends, boyfriends/ex-boyfriends, parental drama- I get about 5% of her attention. We end up spending the morning going shopping for groceries, and most of that time, she spends ordering Chris around [he’s the ex, who she dumped for being ‘too needy and clingy’, yet she keeps him around to grab her groceries, take her clothes to and from the Laundromat, drive her to different places, etc].

Then at her place, she’s tidying up and showering and a million different things- she sits down for a few minutes before bouncing up to go take care of something. So while she’s off doing her own thing, Chris, Jacob and I bond over Merlin. Those guys are funny. [Gwen gives Merlin a flower: ‘she wants to have sex with him’/Gwen gives Morgana a bouquet: ‘they’re lesbian lovers!’]

But hey, leaving aside the lack of any significant interaction, at least I actually got my Christmas present. Dogma. A dvd she got off e-bay. Used, with a whole lot of scratches. I should feel happy, because I love that movie, but at the moment…my reaction’s more of a ‘huh, shitty copy of a dvd that was going for $15 at JB Hi-Fi. How cheap does she want to be?’

Thank god for LJ. I just don’t think I’m cut out for friends in real life.

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Fandom yayness:

Surprisingly, I'm reading a Harry Potter fic that isn't SSHG. Quelle surprise! I just devoured 44 chapters of Arsinoe de Blassenville's The Best Revenge. It's a Snape-mentors-Harry story and by god, it sunk its claws into me and would not let me wrest free.

This fic? Is what I wish CANON was like. It's infinitely SUPERIOR to canon and not in a fanfic way, but literally like it could've been published. I would've paid money for this fic, seriously. It fixes everything that I had a problem with in the books and surpasses them in terms of making Harry more likable and sympathetic. The boy actually studies and tries to achieve things and learn spells! Who'da thunk it? Also, Harry genuinely cares about other people and tries to help- canon!Harry is stunningly lacking in empathy or compassion.

And there is character development! *gasps* The amazing thing is that Harry and Draco are friends in this fic but Draco isn't  whitewashed til he's unrecognizable- given his upbringing, he has the same inevitable prejudices and flaws as in canon, but we get to see the positive effect Harry has on him in such a believable way. There is compromise and 'agreeing to disagree' instead of Draco miraculously converting to Muggle-lover in a heartbeat.

The best thing about the fic is the way that kids from all four Houses form friendships, and we have the core quartet that includes Draco and Hermione and Neville and makes it seem realistic that these very different kids would hang out with each other and actually grow to like each other over time, going from distant tolerance to real friendship.

And I won't babble about how much I love Snape in this. *bounces* Just take it as read, yo. ^_^

If anyone knows any epic-length mentor!Snape fics, rec me? Preferably gen!fic with no major ships [especially not involving Hermione, as I doubt there exists a perfect fic that has 'Severitus' plus SSHG]. I don't want to go looking because I'd have to wade through the Snarry fics and my brain does not need to deal with that.

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You know how I love to compare and contrast Castle/Mentalist. We’ve had the female cop/male consultant post and the Patrick Jane/Kate Beckett post…now there’s a different theme.



Castle 2 x 15- Suicide Squeeze


Roy: Sure you got no cop in the Castle family tree?
Castle: No, us Castles are mostly con artists and circus folk.


Roy: No, I think there’s a little cop in there somewhere.


Beckett: Con artists and circus people, huh?
Castle: Yup, and mind readers.
Beckett: Really? So tell me what I’m thinking.


Castle: Ah! You’re thinking…you don’t care and you want me to stop talking.
Beckett: Ooh, that’s uncanny.

Mentalist:

The above conversation calls to mind interactions between Jane and Lisbon in no less than three different episodes!

CARNIVAL/CIRCUS [pot-ay-to/pot-ah-to]

1x 06- Red-handed
Jane: Everyone's palace is different. It has to be big and detailed and vivid. My palace is a mid-western carnival circuit I used to travel with my father.
Lisbon: Your people are carnie folk. You're finally starting to make sense to me.

MIND READING

1 x 09- Flame red



Jane: Now I have access to all your innermost thoughts.
Lisbon: Yeah, right.



Jane: I'm serious.
Lisbon: Okay. So what am I thinking right now?



Jane: You're thinking, I'm so glad Jane is joking around and he can't actually read my mind.
Lisbon: No. Well, actually, yes, but not for the reason you think.



Jane:
What reason do I think?
Lisbon: Never you mind.
Rigsby: You're blushing.
Jane: You are blushing.



UNCANNY

1 x 18- Russet Potatoes

Lisbon: Is there a word for ‘uncanny yet irritating’?

Yes. I’m reaching particularly wildly with this. But come on, I’ve only heard the term ‘uncanny’ used twice on tv in the past year, so I choose to think I’m justified in linking them…it takes a talented mind to weave all these together, am I right? :P

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There are a few moronic clichés that make me laugh myself silly or shriek til I’m hoarse every single time.

One of them is the ol’ ‘noble character throws themselves between another character and object of impending death’. Why why WHY, for the love of fandom, do these people hurl themselves through the air? How can they POSSIBLY calculate the correct angle and trajectory and factor in the wind and velocity of the weapon and all that within microseconds?

It just defies belief that this seemingly futile maneuver actually works, time and again! One of these days, I want to see someone pull that stunt, only to have miscalculated and wind up passing before or after the bullet/sword/alternative weapon and land roughly on the ground, winded, only to look up and find that not only did they make a fool of themselves, but the object of their concern got killed anyway. BECAUSE IT’S SO STUPID.

Why not at least launch yourself in the direction of the person you’re trying to protect? That way, even if you judged the distance and speed of the weapon incorrectly, your body will absorb the hit anyway- but in the best case scenario, you knock them out of the way and actually survive in the process!

Of course, the whole point of this maneuver is that the Character Dies Heroically. Which I get and if their number is up, that’s it. But couldn’t they die with a little dignity? Because that just makes me giggle and eyeroll like mad, it doesn’t make me respect them or mourn them to a greater degree.

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LotS 2 x 10- Perdition.



I have major issues with the penultimate scene.

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Firstly, evil!T’Pol’s arcs of electricity are spiking all over the place.




Even if someone bodily blocks her shot, surely she can shoot it over their head and down onto Kahlan? Or is the idea of a parabola beyond her intellect? As these caps show, Kahlan could’ve been hit anytime before Leo nobly sacrificed his life in a dumb-ass maneuver calculated to be stupidly heroic.



I like Leo, but that move of his? Only works because the Dramatic Laws of Wibbly Self-Sacrifice demand it, not because it could realistically succeed. I mean, the lightning has to GO OUT OF ITS WAY to fry him! First it's over his head, then beneath his body, and it needs to reposition itself in order to zap him, wtf?



Secondly, T’Pol has all that time between Leo’s crispy frying and Richard’s return to zap Kahlan.



Cara's grief-stricken, Kahlan's a sitting duck...
Why does she pause? Apart from dramatic effect, there is no reason she couldn’t have let loose a bolt right then and ended Kahlan.



Thirdly, she waits for Richard to enter stage left and take up position between her and the ladies- and she tries to zap him. Um, hello? The Keeper needs Richard alive to fulfil the prophecy! Killing KAHLAN helps your master, killing RICHARD foils his evil plan? Wtf, woman?

And then- this.



Leo dies for nothing? He could’ve used the Sword of Truth to fend off the lightning instead of being a human body shield? *facepalm*



I will admit, though, that this shot of the three ladies is made of epic win. Do we need Richard? Really? Can’t we keep Verna instead?

ALSO. Note the lack of woobie!Kahlan whimpering about the people that have died for her. Richard and a few other headdesk!inspiring heroes *cough* HARRYPOTTER* cough* could stand to learn a bit about poise and dignity from her. She doesn’t like it, but she’s a pragmatist and she deals with it minus the annoying angsting and temper tantrums. GOD, I wish this show was called Legend of the Mother Confessor instead.

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Btw. You know what’s sad? I only just realized the pun from Heroes- Elle, who was able to wield electricity? Elle/electricity=Elle-ctricity? God, I can’t believe that only just hit me. *facepalm*

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Meme:

30 Day meme: snurched from labrt2004
Day 05 → Whatever tickles your fancy.

Whee! My OTP, of course. Especially art featuring them- I love doing the weekly SSHG quizzes because I score shiny banners, woohoo!

Okay, so realistically, what’s the point, what am I ever going to do with them, right? But it’s the mystery and anticipation of which banner will come next- will it be a repeat, a dud…or spectacularly cool!



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[While I’m on the topic of SS/HG, Kathryn has updated her awesome fic, The Professor’s Discretion. She wrote it while in the grip of a terrible fever, and edited while high on meds. And still she rolls out another amazing chapter, I don’t know how she does it. *pouts enviously*]

Aaaaand the best picture meme ever:

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Vidspam:


I recently discovered A Very Potter Musical. I'm not in love with it- I have issues with comedy, it can be mean and I'm too protective of my favorites to be able to cope- but it's a very clever parody and I do enjoy how it mocks canon and how ridiculous the plot is. The following clip contains my favorite song of the whole show: Granger Danger! It's so catchy and I've been singing it over and over...

'I'm falling in love, falling in love, falling in love, I could be falling in love,  falling in love, falling in love with Hermione Granger...'


Draco and Ron are hysterical.

Ron: God, why don't you just give her a break for once, okay, Malfoy?
Draco: Why defending her, Weasley? Have a crush?
Ron: NO, no...why all the insults, Malfoy? Covering up a crush?

And the lyrics!
Ron: Strange how a dress can take a mess and make her nothing less than beautiful to me...
Draco: What? What the hell is this, you expect me to sing about her? Don't care about her. It's just a little make-up, Draco, wake up, you're mistaken...

*gigglefit*

[I d/l the soundtrack but most of the songs are Voldemort or Voldy/Quirrel. I'm not sure if there are other songs besides the ones on the soundtrack, let me know if there are?]

[identity profile] fosforito4.livejournal.com 2010-02-23 11:11 am (UTC)(link)
GOD, I wish this show was called Legend of the Mother Confessor instead

Can I, like, TOTALLY SUBSCRIBE TO THAT? ^^

[identity profile] borg-princess.livejournal.com 2010-02-24 12:13 am (UTC)(link)
Hee, I love that people are totally into this idea! Start a petition! :P

I mean, come on- Seeker vs MOTHER CONFESSOR.

Who sounds more badass? ^_^