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'So...you're in a good mood again. Need another speech on what a great friend I am?'

Does anyone else fall asleep listening to music? Because it's the only way I can get to sleep without going insane some nights- but then I wake up the next morning feeling like somebody's strangling me...'coz I twist and turn during the night and end up with the damn earphones wrapped around my neck, lol.

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Your result for the Which Starship Captain Are You? test...

Don't you "Aunt Kathy" me!

18% Benjamin_Sisko, 39% Kathryn_Janeway, 15% Jean-Luc_Picard, 22% Johnathan_Archer, 15% William_Adama and 7% James_T_Kirk!

Kathryn Janeway was a fantastic captain. Despite the incompetent writers and producers that plagued much of Voyager's run with "the moral of the story is.." and other Disneylike family-friendly garbage, Janeway excelled in making command decisions and did extremely well with balancing herself on the thin line between aggression and tolerance. She was unique in that she was the only captain that provided a sort of mothership (bad pun) as well as a paternal role as well to her crew. Harry Kim practically called her mom on various occassions, though he was no match for Seven of Nine when it came to begging for attention.

Take the Which Starship Captain Are You? test at HelloQuizzy

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Random Bollywood dance scene, because I feel like it.

From Bride and Prejudice.

No idea whether this is accurate or not, but someone put up a translation here. It seems to match what I saw on the subtitles when I watched the movie. But really, who cares? It's just so bouncy and fun! I love when the ladies take over and trample all over the men. *glees* And the goofball pretending to be electrocuted, lol.

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Snurched, I think, from

mcgarrygirl78

5 Things That Cross Your Mind A Lot
01. The need to be on livejournal
02. how awesome my flist is
03. the plot for my Lost World fic
04. how much I love Marguerite Krux
05. how much I wish I were dead

5 Last People You Interacted With At School
(or in a public place if you do not go to school)
01. Nishy [randomly ran up to me and hugged me in the library]
02. Netty
03. Katherine
04. Kathryn
05. Katherine’s latest love interest, Chris

Last 5 People Who Texted You
01. Nishy ['I am rite behind you' when I got on the bus, lol- STALKER]
02. Netty
03. Katherine
04. Sapphy
05. Sara

5 Random Things About You
01. I like buying pretty dresses even though I rarely ever go out socially
02. I wish I could be as dedicated to my studies as I am to my fandoms
03. I am disconnected from reality; fandom is my substitute for life
04. If I could get away with doing something illegal, I would totally do it
05. I like growing my hair and my nails- I apparently have Freddy Krueger-like nails, lol. I only get them cut under duress and with many protests

5 Things Near You
01. chocolate
02. mobile phone
03. some TLW pictures I printed out [yay for color printers at the library!]
04. TLW dvds
05. mp3 player [for I am old school]

5 Things You Hate
01. chores
02. study
03. being a failure
04. being scolded by the parents
05. being alive

5 Things You Love
01. Watching tv
02. Discussing my favorite shows
03. Reading fic
04. Shopping
05. Long car drives where I’m in control of the music :D

5 Things You Probably Say Too Often
01. what the hell?
02. Oh my god!
03. Seriously?
04. And it’s like, okay then…
05. Yeah, whatever

5 Things You Do Before You Fall Asleep
01. read a book
02. set my alarm
03. take my glasses off
04. unplug my study light
05. listen to music and think deep thoughts til I finally stop thinking

5 Things You're Wearing Right Now
01. My four rings
02. Necklace
03. Sneakers
04. Jeans
05. Glasses

5 Songs That You Love ATM (at the moment)
01. Bitch: Meredith Brooks
02. Dangerous and Sweet: Lenka
03. Starstruck: Lady GaGa
04. 9 crimes: Damien Rice
05. Miss Independent: Ne-Yo

Your 5 Favorite Movies [this was hard, I prefer tv shows to movies]
01. Stardust
02. Sneakers
03. Race to Witch Mountain
04. The X-files Movie
05. The Sound of Music

[I ENJOY a lot of movies, I just don't obsess over them.]

Your 5 Favorite Music Artists
01. Lenka
02. Missing Hours
03. Tegan & Sara
04. Aqualung
05. Linkin Park

There are a lot of others I like for just one or two songs in particular- U2 for With or Without You, Howie Day for Collide, Oasis for Wonderall, Clannad for I Will Find You and Lady GaGa for Starstruck, among others.

5 Things You Want To Do Before You Die
01. Complete my TLW fic
02. Finish the picspams I keep meaning to do
03. Squee over all three seasons of TLW with

odakota_rose
04. -
05. - that’s about it. Death- sooner rather than later, plz.

5 People That Should Do This
Anyone who wants to...lol, it's like nobody tags anymore! I just don't want to make people feel like they MUST do it. I, otoh, am always up for a good meme, just so you know. :D

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You *points* need to stop being so death oriented, for I am sure you will miss life when its gone.

Collide by Howie Day is one of my most favorite songs ever, its probably on every mixed CD I have. It had the most plays on my desktop media player at 186, Last Christmas by Wham was second with 163.

I know. It's just hard sometimes. I feel so happy and motivated and passionate about my fandoms but when it comes to RL, I just crash and burn. Over and over. *eyeroll* You know how they say the definition of insanity is doing the same thing again and expecting a different result? That's me.

its probably on every mixed CD I have

Ha! I do that too! I scolded myself at first, for wasting space by burning the same song over and over on different cds, but I love it so much! It's also on my phone so if I don't have a radio handy, I can still entertain myself, lol. OMG, Wham did Last Christmas? I adore that song. Must hunt it down. *saddles up and rides off*

Not only will you miss life when it's gone, but all your friends and family will miss you and feel horrible if you die. Trust me. No matter how much you think your parents and you do not get along, they will miss you more than you'll ever know.

I know what you mean...although the whole 'missing life when it's gone' thing makes me ponder the loopholes of not believing in the afterlife...and I'm sure my parents would be upset if something happened to me, but...I'm not exactly thinking about their peace of mind here, more my own. Selfish, but there you go. I just can't stand the guilt of always disappointing them. And at least they have each other.

Sounds like, no offense, you need to seek counseling if you're really that desperate to be dead. It's rather sad considering how young you are. *hugs*

I don't think you disappoint your parents as much as they might make you feel you do. *hugs*

You have friends who would miss you dearly.

Whoops, that was ME up there! I forgot to sign in. LOL

Janeway FTW!!!!

I scored as Sisko.

I was pretty excited at my result! I didn't even TRY to get her! Usually when I do these things, I'll score as someone else and do it over to get my favorite or I'll see the pattern from the start and deliberately pick the answers I know will get a good result...but I guess I'm just naturally Janeway-like. :P

Have you ever seen DS9? Do you like Sisko?

*wibbles* I don't want you to want to be dead, it's just... gah. No matter how much life sucks. I'm not above appealing to your stubbornness either, because as long as I've 'known' you [lol, online lingo, we need it] you don't seem to be the type to just give up on stuff, so why give up on yourself? *clings*

*clings* I appreciate the pep talk. And I love that you think the best of me, but...no. I kinda already gave up two years ago. It just feels like my life was supposed to have ended already and all I'm doing now is biding my time.

None of the things that should matter to me even register on my list of priorities. I'm all about the fandom and just digging myself a deeper and deeper hole by ignoring RL. It doesn't MATTER to me, even though I'm doing terribly at uni and I've pretty much screwed up my course and it's embarrassing and self-destructive and all that, but I don't care. I used to start off each semester telling myself I'd try harder, now I don't even bother with that. Gah. I know I'm ruining my life but I can't make myself change.

I want to be a person I can be proud of, but fantasy land is so much more appealing than RL.

Hm. You know, I dunno what happened two years ago to make you believe that, and I wouldn't feel right asking, but... just try not to go anywhere soon? A) You'd never know if things might suddenly get better and B) [me = selfish] it'd kinda break my heart. *clings tightly*

What exactly were you studying at uni, anyways? I feel like you've told me but we just got home from LA and my brain's half asleep. Maybe you need a bigger change than you're thinking? If uni's giving you that much grief, it's not worth it. I'd say go see a doctor except... well those guys really love pushing their prescriptions *headdesk*

Well, I still think you're awesome, so... pffbt. :P
Yes, I did just blow a raspberry through the internets. Moya was distinctly not amused by this.

Heh. You're so restrained. *squishes* [God, there's this quote in my head that I can't pin down, someone's like, 'Stop trying to pretend you're interesting...' Who was it?!] Well, the story's here (http://borg-princess.livejournal.com/39360.html?thread=166848#t166848) if you're curious. I just think it's so stupid and it's something I should've gotten over months ago, but it's like the lack of angst in my life made me latch onto this one event and then blow it up all out of proportion and use it as an excuse for everything that's wrong in my life. There were other little things along the way, other silly friendship issues that, when added to this event, piled up and made me even more of a mess and then- *shrugs* here I am.

I don't know what I did to deserve you but you're definitely one of the shining lights in my life. *clings back*

I'm doing arts/law. [I think we did have this discussion, and I used law as an excuse to post that Roxton!wig icon...] And people have told me to change courses or give it up but I have no other options, there is literally nothing in life that I want to do. If I had some sort of ambition, then great, I'd go pursue that, but there isn't. So. Kinda screwed.

Yes, I did just blow a raspberry through the internets.
*snorts* The skill! Well, I am impressed. :D
*mwah* Yes, I passed on a smooch through the internets. You're not the only one with skillz. ;P

[God, there's this quote in my head that I can't pin down, someone's like, 'Stop trying to pretend you're interesting...' Who was it?!]

Agh! I've seen this, I think. I can hear it in my head but I can't place who said it. That's frustrating.

And hun, none of that's stupid, I promise you. Losing a friend so suddenly like that sucks, and it hurts, and it feels kind of like everything is falling in on you at once- I don't think you ever get over it fully. *hugs* Stuff happened and it snowballed, basically?

I dunno what to say to that except that it's definitely mutual. And also that I'm a wee bit sniffly right now.

[I think we did have this discussion, and I used law as an excuse to post that Roxton!wig icon...]
Oh yes, I remember that. You were tormenting me with the powdered wig of doooooom icon! *glomps* What would I do without you? I don't know anybody else who takes delight in teasing me with icons of evil hairpieces just because they know I'll eventually start laughing over it. (I pick odd qualities to love, I think...)

O.o
I'll be the optimist out of the two of us, then. :P
You could be a professional writer? Plus, I'd totally get to nag you about writing the plotbunnies. For some reason I think things sound better when you write them *nodnod*.

*gigglesnort* Skillz, we haz them.
And I think that's my bit of LOL!speak for the day...

Oo! I was meaning to mention this to you, but in the first season of TLW, is it me or are they all really overexpressive? Because I keep getting the urge to macro a bunch of scenes from those eps, just because of their faces and the way they make me crack up... :D

I have all sorts of random people test-reading this line in my head now. House? Blair of Gossip Girl? ARGH.

Hey. Arthur from Merlin? But you don't watch that show, do you? I'm pretty sure it was Arthur, now. But it's a sentiment I know I've heard on other shows, so...the search continues. Lol.

I'm a wee bit sniffly right now.

*bites lip* Ack, me too.
*tries to dial down the emotion* Damn, we should be on Oprah or something right now. We'd be rating through the roof, you know. :P

What would I do without you? I don't know anybody else who takes delight in teasing me with icons of evil hairpieces just because they know I'll eventually start laughing over it. (I pick odd qualities to love, I think...)

Yes, I have a niche! It'd be pretty hard to find someone with that specific trait, lol.
And I haven't given up on brainwashing you into liking the wig yet... >:P

I'd totally get to nag you about writing the plotbunnies. For some reason I think things sound better when you write them *nodnod*.

Unfair! I much prefer reading people's fics than writing my own. *guiltyface* Speaking of which...*coughcough* I'll try this weekend. Really. It's just that damn M/N fic won't leave me alone, I'm pretty sure I'm dreaming about it now, though I can't remember any specific details. *beats away the plot bunniez*

Oo! I was meaning to mention this to you, but in the first season of TLW, is it me or are they all really overexpressive? Because I keep getting the urge to macro a bunch of scenes from those eps, just because of their faces and the way they make me crack up... :D

WILL. *headdesk* Really really bad with the faces in the first season, definitely. I don't know about the others, though. I must keep an eye out for this trend when I rewatch. *nodnod*
Oooh, macro, indeedy! That'd be an excellent way to make an already hilarious situation just that much more giggle-worthy. :D

Seriously? I can almost hear House saying it... Maybe I read it in a fic or something then? It's very him.

*bites lip* Ack, me too.
*tries to dial down the emotion* Damn, we should be on Oprah or something right now. We'd be rating through the roof, you know. :P

BWAHAHA. Except that Oprah kinda weirds me out, but yeah. We so could single-handedly raise her ratings. *nods*
Though.. *whispers* I'm half certain Oprah is actually the last of the final five. It would make so much sense, IMO.

Yes, I have a niche! It'd be pretty hard to find someone with that specific trait, lol.
And I haven't given up on brainwashing you into liking the wig yet... >:P

*eyeroll* Hit me with your best shot. (*takes a momentary 80s music detour here and does an air guitar* never let it be said that I am not a gigantic dork)
There is nothing that can convince me that those wigs were a good thing.

Really. It's just that damn M/N fic won't leave me alone, I'm pretty sure I'm dreaming about it now, though I can't remember any specific details. *beats away the plot bunniez*

Eep, woman. Get the bunnies away and get thee to the writing. When you have a chance anyway. *shoos the bunnies off* But I've got this really trippy feeling lately, it happens whenever I don't write for a while, especially since NaNo. (I so shouldn't have ever signed up for that, ever since, I feel like I NEED to write things and when I don't for a long time, I get almost jittery. It's the strangest thing)

WILL. *headdesk* Really really bad with the faces in the first season, definitely. I don't know about the others, though. I must keep an eye out for this trend when I rewatch. *nodnod*

YES. His faces are so dramatic sometimes, and it makes me want to macro the heck out of his scenes occasionally. Some of the others too, though it's not quite as noticeable with them. Except for certain scenes..

In a separate comment for lengthy rambly-ness.

And hun, none of that's stupid, I promise you. Losing a friend so suddenly like that sucks, and it hurts, and it feels kind of like everything is falling in on you at once- I don't think you ever get over it fully. *hugs* Stuff happened and it snowballed, basically?

*big sigh* Thanks for that. I always feel like an idiot when I think about how I fell apart back then. And I think it's because I never dealt with it when it was happening that I struggled so hard; for all intents and purposes, she was dead to me and I was mourning her but nobody got it.

In Year 12, because I was doing correspondence, I had about 13 periods of scheduled class out of 30 per week. The rest of the time I was in the library; frees, recess, lunch, after school. My locker was a metal pile of crap, so I kept all my books in her office. She reserved the desk at the front of library especially for me, she put up a sign announcing 'Annie's Desk' so that I could keep my things there and nobody would come and take my spot. Because my parents banned me from watching tv, she taped my shows for me and I could watch them in the back room. Then we'd have fandom chats and she'd listen to me babble on for hours without getting irritated and actually looked interested in what I had to say. When I was having problems, she was the one I confided in, no matter how bad things seemed, she'd make me laugh. She was the one that got me to stop cutting back then, and she just always made me believe things would be better just from the way she said it. It felt like home.

Then due to some stupid political issues in the workplace, she left the following year, which was my first year at uni. I went back to my high school library almost every day, I was still volunteering because I thought if I just kept to my usual schedule, things would work out, she'd be back and it'd be like old times again. If I just did my part, kept the faith, it'd be okay. Except she never did come back.

So that messed me up, but I thought I could cope because I had made friends at uni. Except there was a falling out and I started skipping lectures to avoid seeing them, started spending more time on the internet. I still had my high school friends to help me feel like I had some place in life, that I had some worth- except of course I wasn't part of everyday life at high school anymore, so we grew apart. It really hit me when my birthday passed and none of them bothered to acknowledge it. Ouch.

The girl I considered the closest thing I had to a best friend was more busy with VCE, her boyfriend and peers than with me. So yeah, 'snowballed' works. One by one, all the people I relied on left me. And I've always taken things so personally, that even though it shouldn't have affected my studies, I ended up skipping every class and spending all day watching tv or surfing the net just to make myself happy and forget about RL.

And then it became a habit. Like, nothing remotely angst-worthy has happened to me in RL lately, I've reconnected with that friend, I have my cousin Netty. But I just lost that motivation to try and make something of my life.

So yeah. *breath wooshes out* Demons exorcized. But I'm still mired in apathy. I feel like Ned in Out of Time, you know? Sinking, sinking, sinking.

I do love that scene. Despite the gravity of the situation, Marguerite still takes a moment to be like, 'EWW, not going in THAT, why don't YOU go?' and Roxton's all, 'I can't for a good and valid reason which would be, uh, oh! My weight! Too heavy, it's so unfortunate' and meanwhile Ned's begging her, 'Please? It's literally a matter of life-and-death, come on!' *ruffles his hair*

*big sigh* Thanks for that. I always feel like an idiot when I think about how I fell apart back then. And I think it's because I never dealt with it when it was happening that I struggled so hard; for all intents and purposes, she was dead to me and I was mourning her but nobody got it.

*hug* Never feel like an idiot for having feelings. It's human. Feeling left behind like that sucks, and that your friends didn't even do anything for your birthday is epic fail on their parts.
Most of all, I think everything you felt there was justified. Everything was going great and then suddenly you got the rug pulled out from under your feet.
I know there's a big gap between telling yourself not to take things personally and actually doing it, don't beat yourself up over it. It's human, and you had a right to be hurt. *squishes* The way you feel is important.
You're one of those people that has a good heart that's gotten a little broken and bruised and yet you still keep giving.

I'm quite sure this is a bad analogy, but I don't know if it's that you hit the ground or that that metaphorical rug that got pulled is still tangling around your feet and tripping you and bringing you down.
...And no, that doesn't totally make sense in my head either, my analogies usually don't.

I hope you find your motivation someday though. ♥
Thanks for telling me hun, It doesn't sound like it would be easy to...

I'm following the left turn at the end of the comment, this is veering back into TLW land. ;D
The scene in Out Of Time is kinda ridiculously awesome. It's life and death, and yet I felt the need to laugh while watching it. And oh, I think that's definitely one of my favorite episodes ever. Even if Ned was getting a head start on the interruptus. *frowny face*

I really do need to figure out which eps I'm going to watch on the plane ride *nods* It's taking me a bit of time to decide, but I like to plan these things out in advance. *ponders*

*bites lip* I can't say how much I appreciate all that. And the fact that you're not trying to 'fix' me, lol. Not that I thought you would, but...thank you for understanding. And it's not a bad analogy, I get it, in a way.

You're one of those people that has a good heart that's gotten a little broken and bruised and yet you still keep giving.

That's really very sweet. I don't think I've ever heard that perspective on me from anyone before. *huggles* Even the people that love me generally think I'm the selfish one, lol.

I'm following the left turn at the end of the comment, this is veering back into TLW land. ;D

Yah, I do have a habit of deflecting by retreating behind my fandoms. It's how I live everyday life, after all. :P

It's life and death, and yet I felt the need to laugh while watching it.

It is indeed this contrast that makes it so awesome! I think M and R were making him pay for interrupting them through their reluctance to fish him out, lol. I never quite understand how Marguerite ends up on Roxton's lap, though, what manner of contortions did they go through to get her from down on her belly to giggling on top of him? Still, epic sweetness! Smearing the muck on his face...*g*

Damn the weekend, I wish I'd been able to give my two cents. Ah well, hope you're enjoying whatever you got!

*huggle* Hey, I'm not here to judge or fix or any of that, I'm just here to be your friend.
And no, I don't think you're selfish at all. Are you sure these people actually know you hun?

Yah, I do have a habit of deflecting by retreating behind my fandoms. It's how I live everyday life, after all. :P

Well that's because fandom is awesome like that. One of the things that helped me get over how upset I was when we first moved to Cali, and to deal with some real life drama was fandom.

I think M and R were making him pay for interrupting them through their reluctance to fish him out, lol. I never quite understand how Marguerite ends up on Roxton's lap, though, what manner of contortions did they go through to get her from down on her belly to giggling on top of him?

Yeah, I think that was definitely payback. Besides it's not like they were actually going to leave him there permanently, so letting him stew a few more minutes was just fine. I just wish Ned had learned his lesson from it *shakes head sadly* Unfortunately, the interruptus continued. as to the ending up in his lap bit... I never did quite understand how that happened. Personally I think they just wanted post!disaster!cuddling and general cuteness...

falling asleep on music is my favourite! what music do you listen to before sleep?

I'm not a music purist, lol, I listen to a lot of artists that have no redeeming value, but I like the way their songs sound, so whatever, right? I've been on a Lady GaGa kick lately, and also Pink and Beyonce. [Yep, I follow the top 20 chart closely] What music are you into?

Pink is definitely a good choice when I am pissed at one friend.... But as a whole I am a music pig- I eat, pardon- listen, to everything humanly possible From "4 seasons" by Vivaldi to one of those trashy songs in which the key(and only) word is "fuck"... :P It all depends on my mood. But under normal sircumstances(not depressed, not drunk, not high) I like songs with meaningful lyrics. My favourite song is one in which the singer says that her soul is a church and the people stole the icons from it.

To cut a long story short- I like poems with music...

Oh, please, make me stop talking about music.... I'm a maniac :P:P

And what chart are you talking about because every single radio station I know has its own ways of choosing the top 20 :D Which can be kind of frustrating...

Ahaha, you and I are alike in our voracious music habits! Except I don't listen to classical music much, but I don't mind hearing it if someone else is playing it. Trashy songs are my guilty pleasure, though. :P

I definitely agree with you about songs with meaning. I really hate it when I enjoy a song and then find out the lyrics and they're just stupid or nonsensical, it means I can't listen to the song anymore because it pisses me off, lol. That's how important lyric meaning is to me. My favorites would be U2, With or Without You and Howie Day, Collide. And anything by Lenka. Have you heard her? You really should, if you haven't.

poems with music

That's a really lovely way of looking at it. I've never thought of it like that before, but yes, I agree completely.

Oh, the top 20 chart- well, as far as I know, there's only the one that they publish in the paper every week in the entertainment guide, and they have the countdown on the music channels. It's based on sales figures, and I think they also include ones that people download online, so it's not just based on people physically buying songs in a store, because really, who does that these days? :P

Hehe- voracious is the exact word here :D:D

It would look strange if someone has classical music in their iPod :D Classics are for home, before sleep or for a romantic dinner or something- not for the bus on your way to work :P:P

And trashy songs are maybe everyone's guilty pleasure, no matter if we admit it or not :P Being silly with silly songs is just too amusing to give up from :D

I have heard of Lenka but never listened to anything by her... but since you recommend her and you like good lyrics, then I really should pay attention :D

Ah, that top 20 chart... I don't think it comes to my country in paper... maybe online or on TV but I don't watch much TV this year...

And yes, (I used to be just the opposite,) I can't sleep without music either. Usually it's Lenka or The Weepies' "Say I Am You", sometimes it's other stuff. (are you getting the impression that I miss you yet?)

Hey! Was that from glimmeringlight? I was just squeeing over the iconage the other day! I kinda wanted to add one or two, but I have a hard enough time deleting icons to add your TLW ones, I can't justify the angst for TSoM. Much as I love it. I was pondering using one of the dance icons, but I don't like how long it takes for the image to appear.

[Randomly, I have watched that dance scene so many times, my tape gets staticky- yes, I have TSoM on tape. I need to buy the dvd, damn it- I really want to learn how to dance it someday. *sighs* But I can't even do the 'hop skip' part properly, so there is little hope. *looks forlorn*]

I also wanted to use her Mary Poppins icons...there was one giggle-inducing icon in particular: Mary Poppins looking at the measuring tape which reveals- 'mentally unbalanced crackhead'. *cracks up laughing* Hilarious, but I don't think I can use such a corruption of the innocent movie...

Weepies! Must get their album, I never go to town, but one of these days, damn it. And yes, Lenka fulfills all sorts of purposes- the 'lull to sleep at night' music, the 'washing dishes' music, the 'driving in the car' music...basically, appropriate 24/7!

(are you getting the impression that I miss you yet?)

*huggleglomps* ♥
FOUR DAY WEEKEND OF HELL, BB. *nodnod* I thought about you every day!

Yep! It was from glimmeringlight's batch. Honestly it was perfect timing, because TSoM was on the other night and I watched it, and then I rewatched it because I have the tape as well, and then next thing I knew I was checking LJ and there were icons. It was lovely. *misty eyed sigh*

EE! Yes! I really wish I knew how to dance sometimes. Because that dance looks so pretty and awesome. The skip part I think I'd do okay with, not sure about the hop though, I'd probably look like a frog in a dress, which is rather not the impression one is supposed to give when dancing.

*g* I saw that! I really should buy that movie as well, I haven't seen Mary Poppins in such a long time, and it was funnnny. The kind of movie that makes me gleeful and giggly, for sure.

Well, get thee into the town and buy it. Or you could totally buy it online as well, Amazon has an awesome mp3 store that I use when I want to feel semi-legal about 'acquiring' music.

Lenka fulfills all sorts of purposes- the 'lull to sleep at night' music, the 'washing dishes' music, the 'driving in the car' music...basically, appropriate 24/7!
HAHA, word! It's like my default album lately. There are certain tracks on that album that I listen to for different moods too. When I'm happy, it's "The Show", "Don't Let Me Fall".
"Dangerous and Sweet" and "Knock Knock" are what I listen to when I'm in a funk and want to be out of it. *snort*
About the Weepies though? This one song on Say I Am You, called Nobody Knows Me At All? it's probably one of my favorite songs ever.

FOUR DAY WEEKEND OF HELL, BB. *nodnod* I thought about you every day!

This was my impression as well. I mean, dude, all the holidays are way unnecessary. And yes, fine, I'm religious, but not in the "OMG, I MUST CELEBRATE THIS BECAUSE EVERYBODY ELSE SAYS SO AND I MIGHT BURN IN HELL IF I DON'T" (then again, don't get me started on the concept of hell, or I will rant about its utter ridiculousness.) So.. yeah, uber religious holidays can annoy me just a bit.

Because that dance looks so pretty and awesome.

Not to mention damn romantic! I'd love to see Marguerite and Roxton dance to this. *sighs wistfully*

I'd probably look like a frog in a dress, which is rather not the impression one is supposed to give when dancing.

*sporfles* Join me at the unco table! We can be clumsy and ungraceful together!

I haven't seen Mary Poppins in such a long time, and it was funnnny. The kind of movie that makes me gleeful and giggly, for sure.

But you know, with this and TSoM and like, Anna and the King, I can never watch the ending. I hate the endings. The kids losing Mary Poppins, the von Trapps having to flee from their home, the romance that never fully blossomed... *wibbles*

All her songs are so happy- barring Like a Song- that it works both when I'm in a good mood, because it keeps me peppy, or in a bad mood, because then it's uplifting.

Bwahaha, Nobody Knows Me at All is a pretty decent song but I wouldn't have pegged it as your favorite! It's not that I think it's unworthy, but that I'm more in love with Take it From Me [used it for a Sparky fic, yo!] and Simple Life.

(then again, don't get me started on the concept of hell, or I will rant about its utter ridiculousness.)

You know when you tell me not to start something, I probably will, right? But wait- you ARE religious but you DON'T believe in hell? I didn't think it was optional...I'm just curious, it's always interesting to debate this, when I'm relatively sure people aren't going to jump down my throat and condemn me to an eternity of hell for not agreeing with them. *sporks the fanatics*

I used to love the Easter break at high school but it's just so painful because it took me away from you guys. And I'm not going to be on tomorrow, then it's the weekend so I'll only have LJ'ed TWICE this week. Ack. *woes* Hopefully I'll have at least one [if not two, but don't get your hopes up, lol] chapters of the fic for you by next week. Sunkrux's threatening to use the whip on me if I don't hurry it up. *eyeroll*

*sporfles* Join me at the unco table! We can be clumsy and ungraceful together!

Works for me. Plus, we can mock the people who we don't like, so it works.

But you know, with this and TSoM and like, Anna and the King, I can never watch the ending. I hate the endings. The kids losing Mary Poppins, the von Trapps having to flee from their home, the romance that never fully blossomed... *wibbles*

Well, I can understand with Anna and the King, and even Mary Poppins because she left, but I always really liked the ending of TSoM. They had to leave their home, yes, but they were together and happy. I kind of feel like in some ways, there's this whole metaphor to the story about music and love and being happy, though every time I feel like I'm able to articulate it, it gets all fluttery and disorganized again. The fact that the movie's based on a true story helps though. I never got to read the book, -I'm gonna order it- but from what I know, they all made it. I think they came to the US, but I'm not sure. *shrug*

Like A Song is a change of pace, yeah. The rest of the album's all shiny-happy but that one song makes me kind of wibbly, brings back memories of stuff sometimes.

Take it From Me is gorgeous, it's one of my other favorites on that album, but the thing is, my favorite songs change a lot. Even the ones I absolutely positively love to bits, it changes. I can never pick 100% what they are. For that album it's between Take it From Me, Gotta Have You, World Spins Madly On, and Nobody Knows Me At All. Musical dilemmas, *sigh*

But wait- you ARE religious but you DON'T believe in hell? I didn't think it was optional...

Of course I am. There's a lot of things about the concept of hell that are ridiculous. And lol-wut? Condemn you to hell for not agreeing? *gigglesnort*
Kinda hard when I don't even believe in it.

Okay, here's the basics of what I believe on it. The Bible says God is love, not even that he has love or shows love, but that he is love. Of all the qualities he has, that's the one he personifies. Would a loving god make people he created burn in hell forever, even if they were horrible people who deserved some form of punishment? Also, I've never seen anything at all in the Bible that really supports hellfire, the places where it's been translated as such are mistranslations of either the original wordings in hebrew and greek and such, or of the main point behind what was being said. And back in ancient times, many of the other religions worshipped their gods by sacrificing little children through the fire to them, but when god's people did that, he punished them severely for it, and it's stated several times in the bible that he didn't command any such thing, nor did it even come up into his heart. So if he thought sacrificing live children by burning them to false gods was horrible, then why would he choose to punish someone else by tormenting them in such a way, forever no less? So no, I don't believe in hellfire at all. Besides, the very concept of it is documented to go back to Babylonian and Assyrian beliefs, not anything that was in the bible. Like a lot of other things, it got adopted by a bunch of the mainstream religions, and they altered their belief systems to fit it, and to ensure that people were sufficiently frightened into obeying. And that just ain't right in my book.

I feel like I've just written an epic response, but that really wasn't all that long, lol.

And I feel terrible about not being on much the past couple of days, I truly have been feeling rough. My mom's pretty much decided that I have to see a doctor about it because all my symptoms match up, and honestly, that's something I knew, and have known for a long time, two years or better. But I just didn't want to talk about it because talking about it makes it real and if that's what I have, then I'm scared. So then of course, she had to go and bring it up and ask me if I'd realized that I seem to have all the indicators. Sigh. I really was planning on continuing in blissful ignorance for a while longer.

Loool. If Sunkrux's gonna use the whip, I'll have to defend you. *rummages* Now where's my sword...?

. Plus, we can mock the people who we don't like, so it works.

Mwahaha. >:D Perrrfect.

I always really liked the ending of TSoM. They had to leave their home, yes, but they were together and happy.

Tru dat. I'm not sure why it makes me so sad, because it's not like they die. It's not the worst note a movie's ever ended on, I just prefer the middle of the movie where they're all safe and cosy and happy at home and I stop watching before everything changes so irrevocably.

On a semi-related note, I get so upset with fantasy novels that spend a whole book or two building up this world and then totally trash it. I hate them for making me invest all that emotion into something the writer destroys. I've read a few where they establish a kingdom and court and way of life, then go and assassinate the king and kill off a bunch of main characters, thus propelling the hero/ine along their predestined path to glory and power. Sucks so bad. It's like my security blanket's been torn away, y'know? It's like playing tag and suddenly, the 'barley' or 'safe zone' or whatever you call it is revoked and there's no protection anywhere.

The fact that the movie's based on a true story helps though. I never got to read the book, -I'm gonna order it- but from what I know, they all made it. I think they came to the US, but I'm not sure. *shrug*

Yeah, that sounds about right...apparently the movie took huge liberties with the story in certain areas. If you don't mind spoilers for the book, this article was interesting (http://www.archives.gov/publications/prologue/2005/winter/von-trapps.html/).

One thing I didn't previously realize- one of the von Trapp girls was named Maria! Heh.

I wish I had something intelligent to add but I got nothing except- I like your concept of religion. I never bought into religion because if there was such a cruel and judgmental and irrational god, I didn't think he was worthy of my devotion. But this- 'God is love'. That would be something I'd consider worshiping. My fangirl life is about loving people, after all, so I could definitely get behind someone who personifies love.

Like a lot of other things, it got adopted by a bunch of the mainstream religions, and they altered their belief systems to fit it, and to ensure that people were sufficiently frightened into obeying.

There's another reason I never got into religion. The Bible was written by people. Subject to human interpretation and mistakes and corruption over the centuries. I don't have enough faith to believe every word written in it and live my life accordingly.

I feel like I've just written an epic response, but that really wasn't all that long, lol.
Epic-ness is also determined by content, I think you definitely got it covered, bb. That was a very interesting and articulate discussion there, thank you.

Question, though- so 'burning in hell' is out of the picture because clearly God doesn't hold with sacrificing people in flames. But what about hell existing in a more 'general' sense, like eternal torment and suffering, WITHOUT the fire business. 'coz otherwise, where do murderers and rapists and really bad people go?

On a semi-related note, I get so upset with fantasy novels that spend a whole book or two building up this world and then totally trash it. I hate them for making me invest all that emotion into something the writer destroys. I've read a few where they establish a kingdom and court and way of life, then go and assassinate the king and kill off a bunch of main characters, thus propelling the hero/ine along their predestined path to glory and power.

*nods* I mean sure, it can be a metaphor for life, and how everything you know can get turned upside down, but don't they realize that happens more than enough in real life without them doing it to us in fantasy too? Reading and tv and all of that? It's my escape. I really don't want to be so utterly depressed by it.

Yeah, that sounds about right...apparently the movie took huge liberties with the story in certain areas. If you don't mind spoilers for the book, this article was interesting.

Hey, that link didn't work for me... I was able to find the article though, that's fascinating. It's amazing how many liberties Hollywood took with their story. I totally have to get the book now, I'm intrigued. *nodnod*

I never bought into religion because if there was such a cruel and judgmental and irrational god, I didn't think he was worthy of my devotion. But this- 'God is love'. That would be something I'd consider worshiping. My fangirl life is about loving people, after all, so I could definitely get behind someone who personifies love.

*glomps* Yeah. I get what you're saying there. Honestly, that cruel/judgemental bit would be enough to turn anybody off. I have to lol here though, you would find the fandom connection *giggles* ♥ But honestly, I don't think there would be a point to any of it -believing, obeying, etc- without love.

I gotta say that I do disagree on the part about the bible being written by people though. I believe it was written by god, using human writers. Kinda like when you dictate a letter to somebody else and have them write it for you, it's your letter but they wrote it. Some people have gone around and changed things up in the bible to suit whatever they wanted to try and prove, but not all of them have.

Epic-ness is also determined by content, I think you definitely got it covered, bb.

loool. Okay, yeah, point. Religion is definitely a little heavier topic than we normally discuss, hehe. Thanks ;)

But what about hell existing in a more 'general' sense, like eternal torment and suffering, WITHOUT the fire business. 'coz otherwise, where do murderers and rapists and really bad people go?

On this point, I honestly think that when you're dead, you're just dead. Simply don't exist anymore. Can't help us, can't hurt us. That applies to even the really evil baddies.

don't they realize that happens more than enough in real life without them doing it to us in fantasy too? Reading and tv and all of that? It's my escape. I really don't want to be so utterly depressed by it.

*nods fervently* ITA. And a lot of fantasy is utterly depressing, it's like they don't understand their obligations here, damn it! When my cousins rec me a book, I always ask, 'Does the main character die? Does their love interest die? Is there any rape or mutilation happening at any stage?' They enjoy dark fantasy, the sickos. *sniffs*

Oops, I think I left the 'forward slash' in there when I pasted the address.

It's amazing how many liberties Hollywood took with their story. I totally have to get the book now, I'm intrigued. *nodnod*

I feel bad for the real Captain von Trapp, that's the main thing the family seems upset over. I never really thought about it from that perspective- true, it's all romantic in the movie, the way she was able to 'redeem' him and bring light and joy and music into his life but yeah, rather sucky for the real guy to be misrepresented like that. And they weren't in love when they married?! AGH! I'll stick with the movie version...

I have to lol here though, you would find the fandom connection *giggles* ♥ But honestly, I don't think there would be a point to any of it -believing, obeying, etc- without love.

I gotta say that I do disagree on the part about the bible being written by people though. I believe it was written by god, using human writers. Kinda like when you dictate a letter to somebody else and have them write it for you, it's your letter but they wrote it.

*preens* It's one of my special abilities. Let it never be said that I failed to find a way to bring fandom into a discussion. :P

I don't personally believe in it but I understand what you're saying.

You know, a lot of trouble would've been prevented if God had just- IDK, appeared and been all glorious and mighty and shown his existence to the world, then handed over a book with all his rules and commands and been like, 'Worship me, yo'. Then there wouldn't be any disputes or wars fought over differing views religion.

But that would ruin the whole 'faith' part of it, I guess. You're supposed to believe without asking for tangible evidence.

Although I wonder why god has to be worshiped. I hope I'm not offending you, I'm just curious about that, I mean- because he created us? We owe him? If a person practices charity and love and compassion towards others their whole life but don't believe in him, does it devalue their actions in some way?

On this point, I honestly think that when you're dead, you're just dead. Simply don't exist anymore. Can't help us, can't hurt us. That applies to even the really evil baddies.

OH. Hang on, so hell has been resolved but what about when good people die? Do they just don't exist anymore as well, like, there's no heaven, either? But- isn't that why a lot of people are religious, because they want to believe that if they're good all their lives, they get rewarded in the afterlife?

Personally, the thought of heaven was always problematic for me. I had two questions I always asked at high school: what if you're married to someone you truly love, but then after all these years together, they die. So, you grieve, but eventually move on, find someone else you also love dearly. Then when you die, you all end up in heaven together, and suddenly, there are some major relationship issues going on. Do we have a time-share arrangement happening, or what? Eternity's going to be reaaally awkard if this isn't sorted out.

I just don't see how people can exist in any form resembling the ones they had on Earth, it wouldn't work. I love Diane Duane's idea of Timeheart, though. Brilliant author.

My other question was: if I marry a friend's uncle, and she marries mine, which one of us is the niece and which one of us is the aunt? :P

I feel terrible about not being on much the past couple of days, I truly have been feeling rough.

It's totally not your responsibility to be online. If you were goofing off and having fun in the real world, that'd be okay. But the fact that you're not feeling well? Doesn't even deserve to evoke guilt, all right? [though maybe if you're not going to be online much, you could give me your number and I can text you randomly? Just a thought, no pressure]

But I just didn't want to talk about it because talking about it makes it real and if that's what I have, then I'm scared. So then of course, she had to go and bring it up and ask me if I'd realized that I seem to have all the indicators. Sigh. I really was planning on continuing in blissful ignorance for a while longer.

*cuddles* I know what you mean about blissful ignorance, it's enormously comforting being able to lock away those scary thoughts in the back of your mind and will yourself to forget they exist so you can go on living life as usual with no cares or worries to bring you down.

But on a selfish note, I really want you to get checked out and see if you can have something done to fix whatever's behind all these symptoms. I don't want a Natasha Richardson happening with you, where maybe there was a way to fix the problem but the treatment wasn't administered in time and really awful things happened as a result.

It might be hard getting confirmation of what you've been fearing for the past few years but maybe, hopefully there's a way to make you better and it won't be that bad. Or- maybe it will, but there are tons of people who care about you and we'll be there supporting you the whole way. *huggles*

If Sunkrux's gonna use the whip, I'll have to defend you. *rummages* Now where's my sword...?

Oh, my lady knight in shining armor. *swoons* Come to defend me at last! ♥

[though maybe if you're not going to be online much, you could give me your number and I can text you randomly? Just a thought, no pressure]

Would this work? I don't think I have international texting on our plan. Also, I think my dad might blow a gasket. Nevertheless, I'm thinking of getting a second cellphone anyways... I've got a secret mailbox, I can handle a secret cellphone can't I? Though if it did work, that would pretty much be the best thing ever.

I know what you mean about blissful ignorance, it's enormously comforting being able to lock away those scary thoughts in the back of your mind and will yourself to forget they exist so you can go on living life as usual with no cares or worries to bring you down.

Oh! You get it, you really get it. If it is that [agh, look at me, I can't even say it. *roar*] okay, if it is endometriosis, I would've happily not known about it. Honestly, I never would've ever mentioned it, so in a way I guess it's good that mom did but still. It's easier to pretend that there isn't a problem- If I don't talk about it it won't be real.

But... now that she's gone and mentioned it, -and apparently my dad was starting to wonder about it as well and they talked about it some too- They're insisting that I at least talk to a doc about it. If there is a a possibility though, I'm simply going to ask that they do an ultrasound, because I looked up what happens on a normal visit to the gynecologist, and all I can say is OH FRAK NO.

*hugs tightly* You're too good to me. I really do appreciate the support, and honestly, having somebody to talk to about it does help. Or at least makes it just a little less scary. Meep.

Oh, my lady knight in shining armor. *swoons*

*gigglesnort* I read this comment at work on my cellphone and busted up laughing, my folks all looked like they wanted to know if I had lost my mind, I'll have you know. XD
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Well, I have no idea how international texting works but my father texts his relatives in America now and then, so I imagine it should work on my end, at the least. And hey, I was thinking of this more in terms of me being able to cheer you up if you're all with the woe and sickness and can't get online, I don't want you getting in debt or trouble with the parents, lol.

if it is endometriosis, I would've happily not known about it.

If it is endometriosis...we're going to have to shorten that word in some way because all those vowels are frakking annoying.

I don't want to be pushy, but can I ask what it is about this that's freaking you out so much? Is there something in particular that's worrying you? Having an illness is, of course, reason enough in itself, but is there something more to it than that, to keep you struggling to repress it for the past few years rather than seek help...?

The thing is, sweetie, if you have it, whether you acknowledge it or not, it's going to be affecting you for the rest of your life, at least up til menopause [says she who only just read up on it on wikipedia, and thus cannot be classified an expert]. The cat's out of the bag now, and I'm sure it must be driving you wild to have to consider the terrifying reality of the situation but... if it had to be out in the open, there could be a positive side to things. I mean, if it is confirmed, can't they give you painkillers and hopefully meds that'll reduce its effect on you? Wouldn't that be a good thing? I don't really know much about the situation at all, but I'd think that'd be a bonus...

I'm simply going to ask that they do an ultrasound, because I looked up what happens on a normal visit to the gynecologist, and all I can say is OH FRAK NO.

So with you on that. You know how they have ad campaigns talking about getting PAP smears every two years to help prevent/detect/aid in the treatment of cervical cancer? No. Nuh-uh. Nein. Nyet. There is NO FRAKKING WAY I'm putting myself through that. I think it would actually be more traumatic than useful, seriously.

*hugs tightly* You're too good to me. I really do appreciate the support, and honestly, having somebody to talk to about it does help. Or at least makes it just a little less scary. Meep.

I'll always be here for you, darlin'. *huggles* I can't do much from overseas, but I can listen, at least, and try and support you. You've been a great friend, don't be afraid to use me, okay? :P

*gigglesnort* I read this comment at work on my cellphone and busted up laughing, my folks all looked like they wanted to know if I had lost my mind, I'll have you know. XD

*buffs nails modestly* I take pride in being able to make people giggle out loud in public, causing others to gaze on worriedly and wonder at their lack of sanity. *twirls*

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And omg, I did not realize til I read a romance yesterday- Gawain was in the Arthurian legends, he was Arthur's nephew! *headdesk* Why did I never think that in an ep that ripped off the mythology, that his name might have some significance to it? FAILZ.

And hey, I was thinking of this more in terms of me being able to cheer you up if you're all with the woe and sickness and can't get online, I don't want you getting in debt or trouble with the parents, lol

*glomps* I could totally use that though, I shall do some subtle investigating on it *nodnod* Being able to text you would be too cool.

If it is endometriosis...we're going to have to shorten that word in some way because all those vowels are frakking annoying.

Lol! I know! *waves hand in the air* I could go back to ignoring it altogether?
No? Darn. Okay okay sorry, I'll stop that xD. Um, that 'E' thing? The big 'E' sounds ridic. plus it makes me think of McDonalds. The search continues.

Uhh, I really don't know why it frightens me, honestly. I mean, I've heard stories and stuff about it that freak me out though. A lot of the treatments for it involve surgery, I don't want to do that, I really don't trust doctors quite that much. And there's the potential problems if I ever wanted to have a kid, too. Not that I want kids -because I like returning them at the end of the day, lol- but at least having a little control over whether I even can or not would be nice. (For all my hakuna matata-ing, I'm still a bit of a control freak at times.)

You're right though, in the sense that I can at least get something done about it, if it is that, and at least get some painkillers to help things. I'm used to being the healthy-as-a-horse person in my family, most I've ever gotten is a cold or a tonsil infection- I'm not sure how to deal with something like this.

No. Nuh-uh. Nein. Nyet. There is NO FRAKKING WAY I'm putting myself through that. I think it would actually be more traumatic than useful, seriously.

These are my sentiments exactly. And honestly- while I believe that having an open relationship with your doctor can be good, I have boundaries, yo. That is far more up close and personal than one should ever be with their doctor.

I'll always be here for you, darlin'. *huggles* I can't do much from overseas, but I can listen, at least, and try and support you.

You are helping me stay calm and somewhat sane about this, that is absolutely the best thing possible right now, don't underestimate it. :D
I'm gonna feel ridiculous if I'm freaking out so much and it's something simple. And wow, have we reached denial already? :P

Hehe. I actually remembered the name Gawain from when we had to study Arthurian legend in school, but I couldn't remember who he was or what the plot with him was. Any details?

Lol! I know! *waves hand in the air* I could go back to ignoring it altogether?
No? Darn. Okay okay sorry, I'll stop that xD.

*smacks you lightly* Indeed, stop with it! Lol, you ostrich! :P

Um, that 'E' thing? The big 'E' sounds ridic. plus it makes me think of McDonalds. The search continues.

Mmmm. McDonald's. I'm so hungry for it right now. I'm spoilt, Ma often buys it for me on the weekend. Oh, and Mother's on camp for a few days this week- she gets back tomorrow and we're having fast food for dinner. *glees* KFC, I hope! *iz junk food glutton*

Anyway. Abbreviations... EndoMetriOsis? EMO? Hey...*sporfles* I'm sorry, I didn't intend that pun at all! It's a little unfortunate that it ends up looking like I'm paying you out...I promise I didn't plan it that way! Okay, does EndoMetriOsiS- EMOS- look any better? Um, probably not... *cough*

A lot of the treatments for it involve surgery, I don't want to do that, I really don't trust doctors quite that much. And there's the potential problems if I ever wanted to have a kid, too. Not that I want kids -because I like returning them at the end of the day, lol- but at least having a little control over whether I even can or not would be nice. (For all my hakuna matata-ing, I'm still a bit of a control freak at times.)

Yeahhh, I thought the surgery might be the issue. I'm sorry, sweetie, it seems to be the main solution, huh? I would hate to go through it, less with the trust issues, more the fact that- my body is private, I mean, a doctor had to examine my upper thigh one time and I tell you, when I found out I had to see a MALE doctor, I spazzed out majorly. I think there were tears involved [in private, I have a horror of public displays of hysteria]. And yikes, the infertility thing came up in my reading, too, but from what I gathered, they're not directly related- if you have the one, it doesn't mean you have the other. And even if the EMO [!] does cause issues for you with the kid-making, there is still encouraging info about treatment, so don't fret. You may yet be ~~condemned~~ blessed with offspring. :P

For my part, I don't want kids myself and it really pisses me off when people tell me I'LL CHANGE MY MIND WHEN I'M OLDER. *stabs them* I hate the notion that my hormones or something will magically induce the desire to have spawn. Some people aren't suited to raise kids. And I don't know why other people find that offensive, I'm not judging their lifestyles, FFS. >:[

And honestly- while I believe that having an open relationship with your doctor can be good, I have boundaries, yo. That is far more up close and personal than one should ever be with their doctor.

Hee. That just makes me giggle for some reason. An 'open' relationship. Okay, I'm way too easily amused. But yes, I don't like it when doctors put their hand up my top with that cold metal thingy to listen to my breathing, so you can imagine how the idea of PAP smears might paralyze me with fear and horror. *shudders*

I'm gonna feel ridiculous if I'm freaking out so much and it's something simple. And wow, have we reached denial already? :P

If it isn't as bad as we think, there will be joy and celebration, no embarrssment or self-recrimination, okay?
Oh, no, so what's the next stage? Anger? *prepares self*

Hehe. I actually remembered the name Gawain from when we had to study Arthurian legend in school, but I couldn't remember who he was or what the plot with him was. Any details?

So, he's King Arthur's nephew and one of the knights of the Round Table, referred to as the 'greatest kight'- that's cool! He was loyal, a formidable warrior, a great healer, a ladies' man...quite the paragon, this Gawain. However, in some other incarnations throughout the retellings of the myth, he came to be embodied by more negative characteristics, but thankfully, more recent stories have returned to portraying the more heroic Gawain, so yay!

Ostrich? Dude. You just called me an ostrich. Seriously?!
*cracks up*

Oh dear. And EMO. That's so not better. It would mean I'd have to don a bunch of dark clothes and eyeliner and ponder the futility of it all. :P
Today though? I'm a little out of sorts and generally meh. If you've seen or read Breakfast at Tiffany's, the mean reds would be a very good way of describing it.

Yeahhh, I thought the surgery might be the issue. I'm sorry, sweetie, it seems to be the main solution, huh?

*nods* I talked to my mom though, so the surgery would only be a last resort type thing.

And even if the EMO [!] does cause issues for you with the kid-making, there is still encouraging info about treatment, so don't fret. You may yet be ~~condemned~~ blessed with offspring. :P

*snort* It's got more to do with me being a control freak than it does wanting kids. I wouldn't have kids unless I was married, because I wouldn't want them growing up with half a family. And generally I prefer the idea of kids that I can babysit and spoil and then return to their families, but I don't do so well with things I can't control.
And it would have to be a lady doctor, because there is no way I'd be remotely comfortable with a guy, I would have such a fit it's not funny. Actually the mental image kind of is, but whatever XP

Okay, and I always say, I don't want to get married and have kids and the picket fence and the minivan(*Shudder*) and all that and everybody says I'll change my mind, so I totally hear you on this. It's frakking annoying. And I kinda think I'm a bit too independent for the falling in love and settling and all that.

Hee. That just makes me giggle for some reason. An 'open' relationship. Okay, I'm way too easily amused.

Oh stop being juvenile! *thwacks* Then again... *snicker*
Hm. This immaturity bit is spreading, apparently.

And when I read up on what occurs when a PAP smear is done, I swear I was traumatized and near catatonic for some time. There was a great deal of shock and a face something like this: O.O

So, he's King Arthur's nephew and one of the knights of the Round Table, referred to as the 'greatest kight'- that's cool! He was loyal, a formidable warrior, a great healer, a ladies' man...quite the paragon, this Gawain.

That is so cool, that you know about this stuff. Incidentally, it randomly makes me wonder what might've happened had they incorporated Gawain into SG-1's retelling of Arthurian myth/ancients. It would've been kinda interesting, actually. *ponders* I have this vague idea, and somehow like everything else, all roads lead back to Sparky.

Ostrich? Dude. You just called me an ostrich. Seriously?!

Uh...*squares shoulders, lifts chin stubbornly* Yes, yes, I did. You want to make something of it?

:P I really hate those kinds of overused cliches in the romances. I start gritting my teeth when I see that whole 'woman squares her shoulders bravely' thing, ack. I don't know why, but it bugs me.

It would mean I'd have to don a bunch of dark clothes and eyeliner and ponder the futility of it all.

*snorts* But I was amused at the notion of endometriosis as an emo kid dogging your footsteps like your own personal rain-cloud. The imagery! The lulz!

I wouldn't have kids unless I was married, because I wouldn't want them growing up with half a family. And generally I prefer the idea of kids that I can babysit and spoil and then return to their families, but I don't do so well with things I can't control.

Lol, you can't control KIDS. I think that'd be the ultimate nightmare for a control freak. :P Maybe you'd mellow out? Mother always says that my father was this easy-going party boy but after they had me, that was when he became obsessive-compulsive and more uptight about things. *eyeroll* So you might do the opposite, heh.

I was just having a conversation with Katherine about kids. She's insisting I will someday have them and that my first-born shall be named Katherine. Pfft. Not likely, considering that she's reneged on her promise to name her first-born 'Marguerite'. Apparently 'it sounds like the name of a second child'. Don't ask me why, her mind works in irrational ways. *shakes head resignedly*

You know what's freaky? At just a little over my age, mother had a partner and a kid! [They didn't get married til a year or so later, lol- oh, the scandal!]

And I kinda think I'm a bit too independent for the falling in love and settling and all that.

I think I'm a little too much of a romantic, myself. Tv romances are so epic, no real guy could ever compare to the Roxtons and Sheps of fandom, y'know?

And when I read up on what occurs when a PAP smear is done, I swear I was traumatized and near catatonic for some time.

Oh, dear god, I never had the courage to properly read up on the subject. I skimmed through a few paragraphs and then repressed the details from memory. Even the vague basics are still too traumatizing to recall. *shudders*

That is so cool, that you know about this stuff.

Wikipedia is a wonderful resource. When people aren't making up religions devoted to flying spaghetti monsters. *eyeroll*

Incidentally, it randomly makes me wonder what might've happened had they incorporated Gawain into SG-1's retelling of Arthurian myth/ancients. It would've been kinda interesting, actually. *ponders* I have this vague idea, and somehow like everything else, all roads lead back to Sparky.

*bounces* Plot bunny? >:D
The Ancients really piss me off, that whole non-interference thing is made of epic fail. It'd be nice to have an Ancient that wasn't scared of stepping out of line, I mean, poor Morgan, putting her neck on the chopping block to pass on cryptic messages that weren't even all that helpful. I loved Daniel's jailblock rant in Ark of Truth, you could really empathize and connect with that feeling of anger and reproach and disappointment with these powerful beings that refused to lift a finger to help. Though Morgan came through for them in the end. :D

No, I can kinda see that. Honestly, all the details of shoulder squaring and such seem a little much. And how pray tell does one square their shoulders anyway? They're ROUND. It's why they're shoulders and not joints on a table. Because of this I've always been a little fuzzy on how exactly it works. *nods*

*snorts* But I was amused at the notion of endometriosis as an emo kid dogging your footsteps like your own personal rain-cloud. The imagery! The lulz!

Okay, now I'm going to laugh again. Because I know they're all emo and whatnot, but emokids are adorable and now I really do have this mental image and instead of freaking me out it's amusing me to no end.

Lol, you can't control KIDS. I think that'd be the ultimate nightmare for a control freak. :P Maybe you'd mellow out?

Hm, I can control the kids I babysit, but if they were my own, it might indeed be different. I can fullname a kid with the best of 'em though. And get obedience out of it.
Pet peeve though? I was watching this four year old, and she's a handful sometimes, not because she's a bad kid but because she's so full of ideas and intelligence and curiosity and mischief that she ends up in trouble a lot. And her mom goes, "if she acts up just smack her" and then had the nerve to laugh like it was funny. Now I'll be the first person to say that sometimes a spanking is necessary, but it seems rather out of hand, especially to tell somebody who's watching your kid. *grumble* Anyway, Cheyenne [the girl's name] is a smart kid, and she likes me so I laid it out, told her I wasn't going to smack her but she had to behave. She said okay and listened to me perfectly well the whole time.
/ramble.
That is to say, I much prefer babysitting. At least I know I don't scar the kids for life.

I can't promise my firstborn child, but if I get another pet, I shall name it Marguerite *nods firmly* I think it's a lovely name.

And when they were my age [19] my parents were getting married. Two years later they had me. So... yeah, disturbing. I'm so not anywhere near the state of mind I'd need to be in to contemplate marriage.

I think I'm a little too much of a romantic, myself. Tv romances are so epic, no real guy could ever compare to the Roxtons and Sheps of fandom, y'know?

I hear ya. I think fandom has spoiled us. Apparently the perfect guy exists only on either a lost plateau or another galaxy. *sigh*

Oh, dear god, I never had the courage to properly read up on the subject. I skimmed through a few paragraphs and then repressed the details from memory. Even the vague basics are still too traumatizing to recall. *shudders*

*nod* Even thinking the word is making me cringe. Brb, I'm gonna go repress the details, it sounds like a very good idea for my sanity, because honestly? The very concept makes me kinda sick to my stomach. No. Just.. no.

Wikipedia is a wonderful resource. When people aren't making up religions devoted to flying spaghetti monsters. *eyeroll*

O_o you know, I'm really not sure if you're joking or not here, the internets can be kinda loco...

Yeah, there's a plot bunny, but it's not coalescing into anything coherent just yet. You know how sometimes you get a vague idea about a fic but it takes a while to crystallize into anything useful? That's where I am right now. But I liked the Arthurian stories when I read them, despite not being crazy about how they worked out on SG-1 *shrug*

And how pray tell does one square their shoulders anyway? They're ROUND. It's why they're shoulders and not joints on a table.

Hehe. Romance Novel Heroine: some assembly required.

But IDK, I get that it means like, she's straightening up her posture, not slumping, trying to look all commanding rather than a frightened little girl, but ARGH, how I want to throttle the person that coined the expression. *frowns*

Okay, now I'm going to laugh again. Because I know they're all emo and whatnot, but emokids are adorable and now I really do have this mental image and instead of freaking me out it's amusing me to no end.

Perfect, mission accomplished. :D If you can laugh at it, hopefully it'll help drive away the trauma and angst. *squishes*

I am impressed by your babysitting skillz. I'd be terrified if I were left in charge of someone's kids, I mean, the idea that they might disobey me and go on a rampage and break stuff or get hurt...*shudders*

And her mom goes, "if she acts up just smack her" and then had the nerve to laugh like it was funny. Now I'll be the first person to say that sometimes a spanking is necessary, but it seems rather out of hand, especially to tell somebody who's watching your kid. *grumble*

Um, omgwtf? You don't tell the person watching your kid to smack 'em as a first response! [What about a scolding or bribery or taking away privileges?] Dear god. Some parents stress out about whether the babysitter is a decent person that won't molest or injure their kids and this woman's- I don't know if she was full on encouraging you to do it or just trying to be funny, but...no. I make off-color remarks a lot ['Oh, sorry! Seems like I'm bashing kids up a lot today!'- yes, really. But it wasn't my fault, they literally kept walking in to me] but whoa.

Anyway, Cheyenne [the girl's name] is a smart kid, and she likes me so I laid it out, told her I wasn't going to smack her but she had to behave. She said okay and listened to me perfectly well the whole time.

Cheyenne Mountain! :D

Damn, that is one smart kid. She got the whole cause-and-effect thing? I am impressed that you were able to reason with a four year old. *applauds*

I can't promise my firstborn child, but if I get another pet, I shall name it Marguerite *nods firmly* I think it's a lovely name.

'tis indeed! But what kind of pet? I'd think it'd suit a cat- I'm so disappointed Marguerite turned into a snake, because the way she was talking and acting, I was convinced she was going to be a feline *pouts*- but if it were a dog, I'd go with Roxton. :P

And when they were my age [19] my parents were getting married. Two years later they had me. So... yeah, disturbing.

*spazzes* Our parents got started young. Yikes.

Apparently the perfect guy exists only on either a lost plateau or another galaxy. *sigh*

My options are either a Lost World or Lost City? *sighs* Someone draw me a map, plz?

You know... *snorts* I'm hearing a voice-over right now, something like: 'In order to find the man of her dreams...she had to *dramatic pause* get lost...'

O_o you know, I'm really not sure if you're joking or not here, the internets can be kinda loco...

Re: flying spaghetti monsters- I wasn't kidding:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Flying_spaghetti_monster

It's hilarious. :D

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