New name and journal meme

[marguerite_krux]

Snurched from Anuna, as most of them seem to be...

1. my username is________ because ________

borg_princess because borgprincess was already taken- by someone with the same birthday as me, who was addicted to chocolate and vanilla coke like me, obsessed with the same shows as me, was newly into the Pretender like me...OH HANG ON, IT IS ME. Weird as it seems, I apparently registered the account a few months before I created this one and I never knew about it...I have a complete mindblank regarding that mysterious other account because according to my memory, the first time I came to LJ, I made *this* account and I have no recollection of any other...it's kinda creepy, like I had a blackout and one part of my brain logged onto LJ without the rest of me knowing...or remembering...*shudders* Dear god, what might it do next?!

2. my name is ________ because _______.

My real name is Annie, because it was my grandmother's name and she's awesome. It's also a family tradition to bestow certain names upon as many infants as possible. There are about three or four other Annie's in the family right now, lol. George and William are the popular male-name counterparts. My middle name is Railala because it was mother's best friend's middle name. I get a lot of grief over it. For some reason, people pay me out all the time for it. *sighs*
 
3. my journal is titled ______ because __________.

No matter what I do, I always forget to forget you. Because I had a dear friend who I loved and admired and relied upon to an unimaginable degree. My mentor, my psychiatrist, my confidante, my surrogate mother. And then I was left behind when things got frakked up with her job, and I was alone and for some reason, I haven't been able to make my stupid mind move on and forget about the past. 

I want to forget her. Because remembering how ecstatically happy and fulfilled I was, and how much she cared about what I thought and how I felt...it just hurts. And I don't want to feel that pain. But she was responsible for shaping me into a more mature and responsible person, and every day I remember a lesson she taught me to live by. Yet she couldn't save me from who I really am on the inside- messed up and useless and out of my depth and just unable to function in normal life. I needed her to help me be a content, well-adjusted teen but life couldn't let me keep the one person who unconditionally accepted me and forgave me all my faults and encouraged me to be better. So here I am, trying to forget her and failing. 

She's the one that inspired my username, the one that I use for all the sites I frequent. We both love Voyager, and I pretended to be the Borg Queen assimilating her, but she looked at me seriously [not mockingly, like my parents, not condescendingly or indulgently like my relatives or other 'normal' people] and told me, 'I assimilated you into my collective a long time ago.' And symbolically, I recognized that to be the truth. So I was appointed as the Borg Princess in our hierarchy. And I'm still going by that name because I can't let go.

4. my friends page is called ______ because ___________.

The Collective. Because I wanted to continue with the whole Borg analogy. And because I like the idea of being one piece belonging to a whole, one mind amongst many, never alone, never defeated, always working together towards perfection. Which includes fangirly hysteria and shipper mania, lol. Obsessive dedication to certain characters. Totally within the description of 'perfection'... ;) 

5. my default userpic is _______ because _________.

Torri being gleeful. Because I love her and Elizabeth, and I wanted a happy, cheerful icon to counteract all the angst and tears. Isn't her cheekiness and spirit just positively infectious? :D