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Rant of the day.

So frakking pissed off.
This will teach me not to first read the end of a fic to make sure it's one I can deal with-
will I make that mistake again.
200,000 words into the fic and then I find out my ship doesn't frakking stay together.
W. T. F. *angsty!flail* All those hours wasted!
I'd've rathered it remain unfinished than find out they separate. *snarls*
I like my 'happily ever afters', all right?
I don't care if it's childish, but if I wanted angst and misery and despair, I'd've stuck with the books, kthxbai. >:[
I don't even have the vocabulary to express how frustrated and disappointed I'm feeling right now.
Feel free to lend me your words, I find myself annoyingly inarticulate at the moment.

Also, the father's on leave this week. Imagine my joy.
Particularly since we had a battle of wills over the weekend over my fingernails, of all the most frakking petty things ever. I managed to reduce our face time to a mere hour over the two days and yet we still clashed. Takes real talent, no? I just cannot believe I'm 21 years old and he wants to ORDER me to cut my nails or else- the unspoken threat being that I can get out of his house if I don't like it. Lovely. I enjoy living with a control freak ever so much.

Amusing fact of the day.

Definition of 'grangerize:
1. To mutilate a book by clipping pictures out of it.
2. To illustrate a book by adding pictures cut from other books.

LMAO. I kinda want to read a fic about someone teasing Hermione Granger with the definition of her last name. *smirks* The girl worships books and the idea that her last name means to MUTILATE them, well...JKR is one twisted woman [but we knew that already]. Luckily for Hermione, nobody's smart enough to realize it or even think to do research on the matter, so it's unlikely to ever be used against her. *gigglesnorts* Hee. Poor girl.

I've been listening to a lot of angsty music lately. What can I say, sad songs- especially about unrequited love- 'tis my new favorite genre. I hate it in fic, but love it in music. Hmm.

Song recs for the sad soul )

Hit me with recs, if you feel so inclined. [Pretty please?]
Remember, angsty unrequited love. *nodnod* Bonus if it has violins, I'm a sucker for anything with violins, sounds so much more poignant, y'know?

To maintain the theme, an angsty poem:


I must not think of thee; and, tired yet strong,
I shun the love that lurks in all delight-
The love of thee- and in the blue heaven's height,
and in the dearest passage of a song.
Oh, just beyond the sweetest thoughts that throng
this breast, the thought of thee waits hidden yet bright;
But it must never, never come in sight;
I must stop short of thee the whole day long.
But when sleep comes to close each difficult day,
When night gives pause to the long watch I keep,
And all my bonds I needs must loose apart,
Must doff my will as raiment laid away
With the first dream that comes with the first sleep
I run, I run, I am gather'd to thy heart...'

-Alice Meynell

I love the last two lines. I confess to not knowing exactly what this poem means, I can't read poetry, my brain doesn't work that way, but the idea of being around someone you can't be with, and having to wait til your dreams, the only place where you find yourself welcome in their arms...*sighs*


Pick your fandoms before reading the questions...

1. Harry Potter
2. The Lost World
3. The Mentalist
4. Criminal Minds
5. Sanctuary    
6. Merlin    

Questions )


One of my old vids, from years ago. No teasing, please, or I'll pout and stamp my foot. :P

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The first song that popped into my head is Iris, by the Goo Goo Dolls. The song as a whole is not applicable to me, but the lines:
'And I don't want the world to see me, 'coz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am

Made to be broken. I LOVE that. That about sums up life in general.

Songs that as a whole do apply...I turn to Linkin Park. Because I can empathize with almost every song they write, it's crazy awesome how so many people can read their lives into these lyrics, it means so many different things to so many different people. The ones I best relate to would be:

*Numb lyrics* )

*Faint lyrics* )


*Crawling lyrics* )

Bonus spam:

I watched Beetlejuice over the weekend and I giggle like mad every time I watch that 'Day-o' scene! Wheee!

Side note: you wouldn't believe how many times people have sung this song at me in my lifetime as a pun on my last name. HAHAHA, guys. *eyeroll*

Well, I much prefer it to Michael Jackson's Smooth Criminal. The guys at high school used to randomly go, 'Annie, are you okay'?  I just looked up the song and it freaks me out. The chick's getting attacked or been murdered or something, right? Yikes. I wanna track down these boys and give them a few whacks over the head now, that was so MEAN of them. *pouts*

New fact I didn't know: a suggested meaning for the lyrics includes a reference to the CPR doll that medics train on, which is apparently called Annie. LMAO. She's called 'the most kissed face in the world'. *dies laughing* My name, it amuses me.

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[ profile] sapphs , the dvd's finally on its way! Due to minor fail on my part, I didn't get around to it last week. It was rainy. *looks woeful* And I didn't feel like walking to the post office in the rain. Another item I must add to my list of Reasons Why it is Lame I Still Can't Drive at 20 Years of Age.

I'm kinda scared at the idea of getting behind the wheel. On the rare occasion I played racing games on X-box, I'm the person that went, 'Screw it, there's no way I can offer serious competition so I'm gonna go see how many pedestrians I can kill' . And I'll be vrooming down the sidewalk, trying to take out as many hapless civilians as I can, while the others are debating whether to be amused or concerned. :P


Taking a cue from [ profile] alyssa22, I checked out the myheritage and was dismayed at how my matches ended up looking nothing like me, and especially how often GUYS turned up so often. *woes* My pride, it is hurt.

But for laffs:

MyHeritage: Celebrity Morph - Free family tree - Ancestors

I object to this! My teeth are nothing like hers! *frowns*


Since this post is rather me-centric, I'm gonna go for overkill. I was cleaning out my laptop and found some old clips I'd cut from the dvd of Pa's wake. This one is of us girls performing a 'traditional' dance. I won't kid you that we're spectacular, but hey. :P

Also, the boys dance too! )


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This post is dedicated to my icon. I can't get enough of this icon. I mean. Guh. *stares* Soooo prettyyyy. From the fabulous [ profile] reiko_afterglow . You made my week. I hope you're back to bouncy fangirly happiness soon. *huggles*


'k, so I haven't been proud of myself in so long, I kinda forgot what that feeling was like, you know, the glow of achievement. Til today. I received an assignment in the mail, and having become accustomed to the negative emotions of self-resentment and general despair that such things provoke, I almost didn't open it. I contemplated 'losing' it. But that's never been my style. I prefer to know the whole truth, even if it hurts, rather than be kept in the dark. I don't believe in this 'ignorance is bliss' nonsense, who wants to be made a fool? So, I gingerly tore open the envelope, peeked inside, bracing myself for the pass or fail moment of truth...and spotted, to my wonder, the most miraculous thing-

'A strong report that presents relevant literature and shows wide readership. Congrats!'

Grade: HD.

High Distinction. As in, 85% or higher. *FLAILFLAILFLAIL* Just...whoa. Complete and utter shock. And you know what's so strange and awesome? This was the essay I completed the day it was due. I was actually worried it might be late, because I handed it in under the door after office hours, so I was steeling myself to see the marks I lost for being so inefficient with my time- but no, the major essay I spent a few hours on was given an HD. Like, how much more am I capable of, were I to actually try? It's headbashingly frustrating. But this is my happy moment. So. :D *GLEES*



Comment on this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate with you. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.

[ profile] mcgarrygirl78  chose these five:

Torri Higginson: plays one of my favorite characters ever, Elizabeth Weir, who receives my everlasting fangirly love. There are not enough words to describe how utterly fantastic and brilliant Torri is, and I'm not just talking about her acting. Offscreen, the graceful way she handled the abominable treatment of TATB is a testament to how classy and wonderful she is, even when confronted with total brain-dead morons. Onscreen, she dominates every scene she's in, it doesn't matter how few lines she has or how the writers undermined her role in the show, I could never focus on anyone else when Torri was around. There's this irresistible charisma, this incredible presence of hers that I'm always drawn to, and it's just so satisfying.

Fandom: is my reason to live. Without it, I wouldn't have met all the fun, awesome people on my flist. IRL, I'm this shy, awkward person that doesn't fit in anywhere, but fandom is my real home. It gives me a safe, comfortable environment to interact with people who don't mock but share my interests and understand what it means to obsess. :D Knowing that there are others who understand and can embark on the journey with me is the best thing in the world.

Tennis: Lol. Tennis. My mother and I try to play weekly, and she thrashes me 99% of the time. I try not to be too competitive, it's a win-win situation because even though I lose to her so often, it's exercise, it helps me keep my figure, even if it's not yet helping me lose weight. *pouts* I grew up playing tennis as a kid- something surprising to those who are more familiar with my lazy, slothlike teen self- and was fiercely competitive. But also pragmatic. I won second place in a tennis tournament and then gave it up. :D I figured, I have my win [yes, it wasn't first place, I was okay with that] and now I can retire. I can cherish that memory and leave on a high note. That's something that's remained with me since, actually. I like to leave on a good note, with happy memories to hug to myself later on. [Which is why I love and hurt for Dee so much in Sometimes a Great Notion, because I can understand why she does it when she does it]

Emily Prentiss: ohhh. My latest love. I think I'm going to spend the rest of my life making up for hating her before ever giving her a chance. Poor Em. She suffered the backlash over being brought in to replace Elle but good. I wasted hours on resenting her before it hit me, out of nowhere, that heyyy...I might actually like this chick. *facepalm* Took me a while, too. It wasn't until Minimal Loss that the full force of my love for her was realized in what I will refer to, in my cliched way, as an epiphany. Criminal Minds was a show I 'didn't mind' before, I watched it now and then when I could...but after Emily won my heart, it became a new obsession. It amazes me how much better, how much more engaging and fascinating and wonderful it became after I started fangirling her. :D

Library: one of the great things about real life. Not only is it my constant source of trashy romance novels, trashy magazines, and occasional worthy sci-fi/fantasy novels, but the public internet service available at the library is also my means of accessing tv shows. Without the library internet, I couldn't d/l CM or The Mentalist or Merlin, etc. etc. I can OD on countless shows because of this wonderful institution. *luffs*

marguerite_krux: (roslin- never gets any easier)


Note to self: getting into the shower, realizing I still had my glasses on, ducking quickly to avoid splashing them and bashing my head against the wall? Not my finest hour. Omg, wait- the klutziness, the tripping, the idiocy...I'M EMULATING BELLA SWAN. KILL ME NOW. *headdesks*

- another tennis match with mother this morning...she beat me AGAIN, 6-3. I did worse than the first time, but my excuse is that after our epic first match, I'm all bruised and battered and not in my best form. Though I am in better shape than my father, who took her on over the weekend and limped away from battle with strained calf muscles in both legs, lol. He’ll be out of commission for a few weeks now. :P 

- finally bit the bullet and registered an insanejournal account. Here I am. Hope like hell I never need it because omg, I forgot how painful it was trying to figure out how to customize my journal. I looked at the option but I don't think I'm even allowed to personalize it. Although I suck at technical stuff, so maybe I'm holding myself back rather than the site, lol. They do offer ONE HUNDRED userpics right off, though, which made me a little dizzy because dear god, I had to pay HOW MUCH for that here?!

- OMGYAY, I’m awash with new ships! Please, gods, don’t let me down. I’m so into The Mentalist it’ll break my heart if this one goes down the drain.

    *Patrick and Lisbon’s flirty banter and cutesy exchanges are killing me with squee. The end of ep 9, with them running in the rain, was pretty sweet. Ep 10, however, surpassed its awesomeness a million times over. I about died from giggly glee.

    *And In Plain Sight...*dies* Just when I thought I didn't have it in me to fall for another police procedural. The character's name is Mary, which made me partial to liking her before I even met her, lol. She's one of those smart asses that make wisecracks all the time and makes her boss's life hell by playing fast and loose with the rules. Pretty much like House or Patrick Jane, except I'm shipping partners here, NOT boss/subordinate, kthxbai.

- I'm no good at thinking up captions, and I applaud those with the talent to do so. [One of my favorite time-wasting sites is, heh.] But this RL pic of my cousin's cat, Checkers, and their bird, Icarus makes me lol.

Look at that, no fear! It's not surprising, though. The bloody bird is a tyrant, it literally rules the roost. I mean, you'd think the life expectancy of a free flying bird in a house with TWO cats would be limited, but it is a vicious thing and totally freaks them out, heh.



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