What song would you choose as the theme song for your life?

[marguerite_krux]

The first song that popped into my head is Iris, by the Goo Goo Dolls. The song as a whole is not applicable to me, but the lines:
'And I don't want the world to see me, 'coz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am...'

Made to be broken. I LOVE that. That about sums up life in general.

Songs that as a whole do apply...I turn to Linkin Park. Because I can empathize with almost every song they write, it's crazy awesome how so many people can read their lives into these lyrics, it means so many different things to so many different people. The ones I best relate to would be:


I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure
Of walking in your shoes
[Caught in the undertow
/Just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
[Caught in the undertow
/Just caught in the undertow]
I've
Become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly
Afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
[Caught in the undertow
/Just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
[Caught in the undertow
/Just caught in the undertow]
I've
Become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
But I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you
I've
Become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
 
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I have a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can't help the fact
That everybody can see these scars
I am what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you
To just believe this is real
So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be there 'cause you're all that I've got

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

I am a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
'Cause you don't understand, I do what I can
But sometimes I don't make sense
I am what you never want to say, but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you
For once just to hear me out
So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

Hear me out now
You're going to listen to me
Like it or not
Right now
Hear me out now
You're going to listen to me
Like it or not
Right now

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

---

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling, I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence, I'm convinced
there's just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real


Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence, I'm convinced
there's just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real 
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Bonus spam:

I watched Beetlejuice over the weekend and I giggle like mad every time I watch that 'Day-o' scene! Wheee!

Side note: you wouldn't believe how many times people have sung this song at me in my lifetime as a pun on my last name. HAHAHA, guys. *eyeroll*

Well, I much prefer it to Michael Jackson's Smooth Criminal. The guys at high school used to randomly go, 'Annie, are you okay'?  I just looked up the song and it freaks me out. The chick's getting attacked or been murdered or something, right? Yikes. I wanna track down these boys and give them a few whacks over the head now, that was so MEAN of them. *pouts*

New fact I didn't know: a suggested meaning for the lyrics includes a reference to the CPR doll that medics train on, which is apparently called Annie. LMAO. She's called 'the most kissed face in the world'. *dies laughing* My name, it amuses me.

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Comments

[mcgarrygirl78.livejournal.com]

My song is Me by Paula Cole, from her album This Fire, which also features the almost as cool and seriously overplayed I Dont Want to Wait. I love Paula's voice and the line "It's me who is my enemy, me me who beats me up, me who makes the monsters, me who strips my confdence". I recommend the album and the song to everyone so you should check it out.

I actually have a lot of songs that fit me depending on my moods, feelings, etc. When I was in high school and college I swear my "song" changed every year.

[borg-princess.livejournal.com]

Oh, thank you! I'm always on the lookout for songs with meaning to them, the ones that I can relate to, and that line you quoted? *shivers* And yay, the library has it, so I'm ordering it now!

[mcgarrygirl78.livejournal.com]

#4 feelin love.....holy moly, that's a good song. Its also on the City of Angels soundtrack. And though I do not like the movie much the soundtrack is a must have.

[sapphs.livejournal.com]

I thought the CPR dolls were spelled Anne but pronounced Annie? Meh, it's been a few months since I saw them lol.

I haven't seen Beetlejuice in so long I don't even remember it! Fail, Sapph. Fail.

*hunts down Beetlejuice*

[borg-princess.livejournal.com]

Re: the dolls-
The modern CPR dummy was built in 1960 and sold under the name 'Resusci Anne'. In North America, she has been christened 'CPR Annie'.

I'm starting to resent the name 'Anne', you know. It's so galling that my own name is like the lame little side-kick, a derivative. *pouts*

Beetlejuice is such a trippy movie! I totally forgot what it was about, all I remembered was that Day-o scene, lol. I'm glad I rewatched it, the movie's a fun way to while away the afternoon. I wish I had some friendly ghosts living at my place, that'd be fun. :D

You know, I spent the whole movie trying to figure out who the main girl was and I still didn't have a clue til the end credits, when it became embarrassingly obvious I should've known her. *facepalm*

[sharpes-hussy.livejournal.com]

"At Last" by Eta James

[borg-princess.livejournal.com]

Is this song one that really describes your life? 'coz, dude, I'd be so jealous!

At last, my love has come along
My lonely days are over

I like the lyrics, it describes the life I'd LIKE mine to resemble, lol.

The night I looked at you
I found a dream that I could speak to
A dream that I can call my own
I found a thrill to rest my cheek to
A thrill that I have never known

That's so lovely. I'm totally tracking this song down.

[odakota-rose.livejournal.com]

*hug* I'm around for a little bit, then heading to bed. I've been feeling spectacularly icky, though I never did get that cold I felt coming on.
Are you still on?
*ponders* I'm so gonna kick myself if I missed you again. XD

[borg-princess.livejournal.com]

<<< This icon accurately expresses my reaction when I see you commenting again. :P

It's kinda ironic that you were worried about a cold and then there's all that other medical drama going down. Gah. At least life's not totally heartless, I guess?

Don't kick yourself, darlin', your body's going through enough stress at the moment, lol. On a random note, I really really want a massage. Like, I'd pay a relative to rub my shoulders, they're killing me right now. Stupid bus kept me waiting for twenty minutes this morning, and I have this thing about not putting my bag on the ground- people joke I treat my bag like a person, it's got to have its own seat at a table or it stays on my lap because EW GROSS, not subjecting it to dirt and germs, all right?- and I also have this thing about packing everything but the kitchen sink, so...shoulders. Ouch. *pouts*

[odakota-rose.livejournal.com]

*glee*
The icon bit there was the other comment that made me crack up at work earlier.

*snort* I think I'm having a Roslin moment. Life's a bitch and then you die. *grumblegrumble*

Okay, I think I'm better now. It's amazing what a bit of whining can do for your mood.

Oh I know. But on the plus side, we have this massage thingy that you put on the chair and so I spent a good portion of time using that. It helps quite a bit. And I usually give my family back massages when they're sore, so my mom and dad have both worked on my shoulders the past few days. It's kinda nice to be the one getting the massage sometimes, heh.
And I agree with your point on the bags. Seriously, I carry my bag with me everywhere, and sometimes I sit it on my bed, and you want me to put it on the floor? The germy, disease ridden floor, where people carry bathroom germs and god knows what else everywhere? No plz. I carry hand sanitizer for a reason. And it pays to be prepared. I always take more than I usually need, but only because I never know if I'm gonna need a book. Or a toolkit, box of matches, roll of tape, and or pencil sharpener. I kid you not, these are necessary items for every girl to have with her.

eta and yes, I did grow up watching MacGuyver, however did you guess!?

[borg-princess.livejournal.com]

Work? Baby-sitting? Or...*ponders* Crap, I think I've asked you before, but I've hit a mindblank. Grr. *eyeroll at self*

Life's a bitch and then you die.

NO DYING. *shakes you* I refuse to play Adama to your Roslin, 'k? There is no heartbreak in our future. *nodnod*

It's amazing what a bit of whining can do for your mood.

Lol, IKWYM. It doesn't solve anything but it makes me feel a little less burdened, sometimes. I have a lot of silly little things that I keep in and brood over til they turn into major issues, but just letting it out and venting during periodic intervals along the way helps breed a healthier frame of mind, methinks.

Oh I know. But on the plus side, we have this massage thingy that you put on the chair and so I spent a good portion of time using that. It helps quite a bit.

Ohhh, is that the cloth-like thing that you drape over the chair and plug in, or something? Ma has that somewhere. I gotta get her to dig it out, I could use the relief.

And I usually give my family back massages when they're sore, so my mom and dad have both worked on my shoulders the past few days. It's kinda nice to be the one getting the massage sometimes, heh.

I used to bribe my father with massages, but that was a looong time ago. I couldn't massage for that long, though, my thumbs got so tired, it really baffles me how professional masseurs can do it all day because OUCHIE. I try to get various family members to massage me sometimes but they're always afraid they're going to break me and I'm like, 'No, really, HARDER, please, that knot's refusing to budge under this pansy-ass pressure'. *sighs*

And I agree with your point on the bags. Seriously, I carry my bag with me everywhere, and sometimes I sit it on my bed, and you want me to put it on the floor? The germy, disease ridden floor, where people carry bathroom germs and god knows what else everywhere? No plz.

YESSS. *punches fist in the air triumphantly* Someone that GETS ME. I don't know why I'm seemingly the only person around here that does this! My bag is precious to me [it is decorated with a bunch of SG-1 badges, one of Weir and one of Adama; as well as a bunch of keyrings, lol, because I do love to stamp my personality onto things- I need to add a few TLW items, I think] and I treat it with the care and dignity it deserves. And it lives on my bed, so definitely don't want to be transferring germs and crap, yuck.

Oh, I don't do the hand sanitizer thing, though. I wonder where I can get me one of those...and girl, you are way more prepared than I am, for the first time in my life, I have less in my bag than someone! I have a book or two, a mirror, nail clippers/tweezers, band-aids [I need to pick up some Savlon, I keep forgetting], blu-tack, about twenty pens, lol...I also carry around a bunch of cds, Roswell in case I get bored, some munchies...yeah, I don't know WHY my bag is so heavy.

eta and yes, I did grow up watching MacGuyver, however did you guess!?

My childhood was so deprived! *sighs jealously*

[dragonladyk.livejournal.com]

Crawling always reminds me of the Star Trek: TNG ep "Best of Both Worlds" and its aftermath, "Family."

DragonLady

[borg-princess.livejournal.com]

Hee, the Borg! *twirls*

You know, I started off as a Voyager fan before seeing any of the other shows, and it always surprises me how much more- threatening the Borg seem in TNG. I mean, in Voyager, they're kind of like the 'enemy of the week', they're creepy and unnerving and there's all that 'omg, how're we gonna beat them back this time?!' but it's like a way of life. Whereas my feeling with TNG is that the Borg are a lot scarier there. It's way more 'doom-and-gloom', to me, anyway. Just the way the shows handled it- come on, Picard was forcibly assimilated and there was that whole 'show him recovering' theme in the follow-up ep. This was a serious event and there was all that emotional trauma happening. Janeway? VOLUNTEERS TO BE ASSIMILATED as part of some crazy-ass plan! Dude!

[dragonladyk.livejournal.com]

The lameing-up of the Borg was my major problem with Voyager.

However, I will say that the Queen's assimilation of Picard was very different from Janeway's and Seven's. Janeway & Seven were just drones. Picard was to be her counterpart, her chief weapon against the Federation. She didn't just lock Picard's soul up in a box and use his memories/body as fodder, she sunk her claws into his soul and tried to rip it out through his chest. See "First Contact" for details.

My theory is that Picard accidentally took something from the collective with him on the way out, which was why the Queen began making mistakes after her major brush with humanity, how Unimatrix Zero was even able to form, and why even though he had all his implants removed PIcard can still hear the collective. And why Picard goes completely batshit about the Borg and Janeway keeps it together.

DragonLady

[borg-princess.livejournal.com]

It was a bit of a shame that the Voyager folk de-menaced the Borg. The writers transplanting plot points involving the Borg and Q didn't win many fans, unfortunately. I love Q but I wasn't all that thrilled with his Voyager eps.



This always makes me laugh, though. :P

Now, I admit, I'm not super educated about TNG in general and Picard's assimilation in particular, but that theory of yours makes a lot of sense. I doubt the writers had that in mind, but it does make the changes in the Borg seem rational.

I really loved the Unimatrix Zero idea, such a shame that had to be destroyed. It was the one time I really liked Seven and sympathized with her. [Apart from that other time when she went crazy and lost control of the identities she assimilated and became different people, lol, LOVE that ep!]

You going to see the new Star Trek movie? I'm not a fan of TOS, but it's coming out the day before my friend's birthday and she adores that generation, so I'm being dragged along. Such a sacrifice! :P

[dragonladyk.livejournal.com]

I am going to see it with extreme trepidation. Insurrection and Nemesis sucked so hard that I'm afraid this new movie is going to be an un-StarTrek sex-and-shooting fest.

Ont he other hand, JJ Abrams is a long-time Trek fan, so maybe not.

DragonLady

[borg-princess.livejournal.com]

Nemesis was the first movie I saw, and the fact that Janeway was in it [even if only for like, ten seconds] made me squee so hard. Yeah, I'm easy like that.

The ending sucked majorly- I was crying. I get ridiculously emotional over these things. *stabs writers* Frakking amazon claims 'The sacrifice of a beloved character is just one of many highlights in Nemesis'. :O WHATEVER. *roars*

The reviews for the new movie have been really encouraging, though. I mean, five stars, whoa! I'm not used to sci-fi movies, let alone Star Trek ones being rated that highly by critics!