You know what, just because you live what you think is a charmed life doesnt mean you cant feel empty and unable to focus on anything. I think you should talk to someone, do they have a counseling center at uni? Seriously, these are not good feelings to have. And I know I only know you through fandom and have only read your colorful, crazy posts that girl lives inside you too, and you know, you can make something you are interested in your major, like journalism or film or something like that.

Follow your own beat but do it inside the parameters given to you. But first I think you should seek out an unbiased third party to talk to. And you are only 20, you shouldnt necessarily be independent and capable. Everyone is different and sometimes that is what parents have the hardest time grasping. We all grow up at different rates, speeds and capacities.

You seem like a witty, intelligent girl....maybe you arent being stimulated enough, you seem so underwhelmed with school. But there are probably more things it can offer and that's why you should talk to someone there. They can tell you things you might not even know about.

I am rooting for you, I like you. And you can always hit me up at my email mcgarrygirl78@gmail.com if you want to blow off steam.