I have gone through exactly the same thing. Exactly. I see myself not doing what I should, not trying, not going to classes, but fearing getting a job, fearing the life outside of my books, my family, and my television. I see it and I hate it, but I can't do anything.

There are however, things you can do. I was diagnosed with depression at age ten, so I've been on antidepressants for a while, and now that I have them adjusted to the right level, they work great. So that is an option, for sure. Also, therapy has helped a lot. Just having someone to talk to who isn't directly involved in your daily life, who is paid to listen non-judgmentally and give good advice is a huge help. I'm still not 100% what I could/should be, but these things have helped enormously. Something I'm not really willing to try yet, but will if it comes down to it is giving up my fandoms. My books will go into boxes and I'll ask my parents to hide the remotes. That is a last resort though.

*hugs* Hang in there.