Let me just say, they are your problems....that makes them real enough. Being an emotional wreck isnt that normal. Dont worry about what the girl who comes after you is saying, just go in and say your piece. That's what the counselors are there for. Pressure is hard and everyone handles it differently. Uni is the time when a lot of us crack up, I know I did. I was a mess, a fuckin mess, and if it werent for that one person who was always there to listen I dont know what I would have done. Yeah, I was still kinda a mess, but I made it through. I got a degree, got a job, came into the real world. And hell, I still held on to my fantasies and my fun....you can do both.

I just like you, what I know of you in this journal and you seem smart and level-headed and you even know something is not right. Knowing is half the battle, now you try to fix it. The unbiased third party is usually the best way because they can be objective and they dont feel like they are in this for something, like family or friends might.

And I am rambling now but I hope you figure out what to do. I'm always around so if you want to chat you can find me somewhere in cyberspace.