Hi, brain twin. :P Is it strange how many similar people there are on LJ? I mean, you're me a few years ago, and the others are me in a few years time... dude, I've got chills.

I see it and I hate it, but I can't do anything.

*nods emphatically* This is it, exactly. I don't care what Etc. Anonymous say, knowing something is wrong is not the first step to fixing it. I'd love to, but no, it's not like that.

Anti-depressants...sound awesome. I'd take them now if I could, or even a placebo just to see if it would make me different, make me better.

But I don't know, I did psychopathology last semester to see if I could figure out what my deal is, and true, I skipped most of the semester but I did look at the section on depression and I don't quite meet the criteria. Ugh. That bit about 'losing interest in things that formerly gave one pleasure' is one of the things that trip me up. Because I'm totally the opposite, I DIVE into fandom and lap it up to the most extreme degree possible. I feel totally happy and blissful and content when I'm involved in it, when I'm doing anything on the internet or watching tv, really.

Something I'm not really willing to try yet, but will if it comes down to it is giving up my fandoms. My books will go into boxes and I'll ask my parents to hide the remotes. That is a last resort though.


Never going to happen. Never never never never never never never. *shudders* They're the only thing that make life worth living. You're a stronger person than I am if you could do it. *clings* Don't go!

Thanks for the chat, you help keep me grounded. *huggles*