I just- it feels like they played me for a fool, you know? They exposed me to something inside myself I hadn't realized was there and made me think I could be someone different and then all of a sudden, there's that noose around my neck again. Psych.

I feel like giving up now, because there was all that energy and determination- and then it's just fizzled out and god, I am so bitter right now.

Bring on the therapy, I really need it.

Ugh, I feel like all I've been doing lately is complaining. Can't be much fun for you, but you have my heartfelt thanks for sticking with me. *hugs*