Yeah, that's it exactly- Ma was happy to have me with her when the parents didn't want me around anymore, but as soon as Mother came around looking to 'work on things', she- well, she didn't rescind her offer, but it was pretty clear that me living with her wasn't going to happen now. There aren't the words to describe the amount of anger and disappointment I felt at that outcome.

I could still leave, of course, like you guys are saying, I'm old enough and all that- but the safety net I had is gone.

Besides, it's not that simple to just find a place and move out, and the idea of doing it on my own, without another person- I don't think I'm weak for not wanting to do that, I know a lot of independent kids, my own peers, who have stable jobs and are outgoing and confident and still wouldn't rent a flat on their own, they'd need at least one friend to help with the rent and bills.

So yeah, leaving is still an option, it's always an option, but I can't just pick and up go the way I could have when Ma's offer was still open.

talking to someone is always a good thing, especially an objective 3rd party. And someone who cannot talk to your parents as soon as you turn your back

Definitely. I am actually looking forward to it, lol. Can you tell I like to talk about my issues? And it's someone who's paid [well, by the government, anyway] to listen, so I don't feel as bad for dumping it all on them. ^_^

Thank you for always having my back. I don't think I say it enough, but I love you. *hugglesquish*