Sorry to be the one to ask, but why are you seeking professional help exactly?
I mean, fine, I understand you've said you have suicidal thoughts and I'm guessing following that comes bouts of depression, but for you to need professional help... it's very bad, then?
I only ask 'cause I've been on the side of depression (haven't we all?) and I never once went to a therapist (couldn't afford it and it would be a huge shame to the family), so I had to learn how to cope with it myself... if the 'professional help' doesn't always 'help', I'm here, y'know. Via e-mail, owl or floo powder. I'll be right here.
*hugs you* I hope you get to feel better soon, though.
Now onto the family specifics... that sucks ASS.
I know exactly how you must feel! It's like, I'm leaving for Texas in July (did I mention that?) Moving, permanently, ready to start my life over and do so much, and if someone in my family did or said something to keep me here... I'd go bonkers. I'd be back to the same routine of blah and ugh and WAIL because I'm stuck in the same damn hole instead of digging my own and making it pretty (yeah, that sounded better in my head). But, at least you'll be spending some time with your grandma and... I don't know, can't you make your grandmother and parents see that you'd like your stay with your grandma be more permanent? Maybe, if by staying those days with your Ma, she sees that you're better and more motivated, she might offer...? I mean, fuck, even your mother can't object to letting you go if it WILL do you good.
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Date: 2010-03-26 07:34 am (UTC)I mean, fine, I understand you've said you have suicidal thoughts and I'm guessing following that comes bouts of depression, but for you to need professional help... it's very bad, then?
I only ask 'cause I've been on the side of depression (haven't we all?) and I never once went to a therapist (couldn't afford it and it would be a huge shame to the family), so I had to learn how to cope with it myself... if the 'professional help' doesn't always 'help', I'm here, y'know. Via e-mail, owl or floo powder. I'll be right here.
*hugs you* I hope you get to feel better soon, though.
Now onto the family specifics... that sucks ASS.
I know exactly how you must feel! It's like, I'm leaving for Texas in July (did I mention that?) Moving, permanently, ready to start my life over and do so much, and if someone in my family did or said something to keep me here... I'd go bonkers. I'd be back to the same routine of blah and ugh and WAIL because I'm stuck in the same damn hole instead of digging my own and making it pretty (yeah, that sounded better in my head). But, at least you'll be spending some time with your grandma and... I don't know, can't you make your grandmother and parents see that you'd like your stay with your grandma be more permanent? Maybe, if by staying those days with your Ma, she sees that you're better and more motivated, she might offer...? I mean, fuck, even your mother can't object to letting you go if it WILL do you good.
Seriously!