I suggest that you switch that "not going to happen now" to "not going to happen YET". Now is more of a "it's not going to happen at all" mode of thinking. Yet leaves it open for the hopeful chance it will happen.
It's admirable that you don't want to cause your Ma any emotional pain, but it's sad on her part that (and I get it, really I do) she's more concerned about your mom (who's an adult with her own child) than she is about you, someone who's younger and has her entire life ahead of her.
It's great really if you and your mom have patched things up and she's willing to give you the room you need to grow and change, but for your own sanity, I certainly hope she's able to get your father to lay off you. You deserve a happy ending as well as your mom, period.
Anyone who thinks that seeing a counselor is a sign of weakness is an idiot, plain and simple, imho. There are some traumas that happen to us that no matter how much we might want to handle by ourselves we are just not equipped to handle alone. We're too close to that trauma to be able to step away from it and examine it logically so that it can no longer cause us harm. That's what counselors are there for, to help us step away from the trauma and see it in a different light.
*hugs* Just remember that you deserve to be happy, regardless if your idea for happy is the same one your family has for you. Sometimes they don't always match and if your family truly loves you, they'll want the happiness YOU seek for you. Not theirs.
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Date: 2010-03-29 12:21 am (UTC)It's admirable that you don't want to cause your Ma any emotional pain, but it's sad on her part that (and I get it, really I do) she's more concerned about your mom (who's an adult with her own child) than she is about you, someone who's younger and has her entire life ahead of her.
It's great really if you and your mom have patched things up and she's willing to give you the room you need to grow and change, but for your own sanity, I certainly hope she's able to get your father to lay off you. You deserve a happy ending as well as your mom, period.
Anyone who thinks that seeing a counselor is a sign of weakness is an idiot, plain and simple, imho. There are some traumas that happen to us that no matter how much we might want to handle by ourselves we are just not equipped to handle alone. We're too close to that trauma to be able to step away from it and examine it logically so that it can no longer cause us harm. That's what counselors are there for, to help us step away from the trauma and see it in a different light.
*hugs* Just remember that you deserve to be happy, regardless if your idea for happy is the same one your family has for you. Sometimes they don't always match and if your family truly loves you, they'll want the happiness YOU seek for you. Not theirs.