I am pretty clear on at least one thing that I want for the first time. It's pretty silly considering I have no idea what I want to do with my life and it's kinda terrifying being lost at sea and not knowing how I'm gonna support myself, but I don't think I can figure out what I should do while I'm still with my parents. Because I'm always going to feel the weight of their disapproval and disappointment with me. I may deserve it, after what I did to them, but I can't live like that. So I have one goal for myself, which is a change for the better and at least I'm thinkikng about the future now.

Yay for counselors! I think it must be so frustrating being one, though, having to listen to other people blather on and on about petty difficulties in their lives. But they do good for society, even if some people disparage their profession.

I'm feeling a lot better this week. I've kinda released a deep breath and I'm just working on figuring out how I'm gonna move on from this point. It's freaking me out, but that's what LJ's for, to give me some peace and relief and see to my mental wellbeing, lol. *squishes* Thanks for the good wishes, bb, I appreciate it!