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marguerite_kruxLegend of the Seeker, ep 5.
I really hated that kid for the first half of the ep. He was such a frakking brat, I was all, RICHARD, YOU ASS, WHY SAVE HIM? WHYYYY? He's always leaping in without a plan except to do the honorable thing which is a surefire way to getting killed, but for Kahlen and Xed. The stupid kid was just so irritating and selfish and causing trouble for no reason, doing his best to sabotage their mission and get them all executed, it baffled me why the writers would think this was anything but a ratings kill.Then Richard got hurt defending the boy and all of a sudden, it all changed. That actor is so bloody talented. He went from a snotty-faced runt I'd dearly love to murder to...a sympathetic character. One that I really really liked! And wouldn't have minded making a recurring character! WTF?! His tone when he told them he wasn't worth getting killed over, his confusion at good people doing decent things with no expectation of reward, the fact that though his talent allows him to see into people's minds, he still couldn't understand why Kahlen and Richard were sticking by him because nobody in his life had ever done that for him before, nobody had cared about how he felt or what he thought, just used and abused him for his power and to beneft themselves. No wonder he turned so hard and sulky and bitter. No wonder he was out for himself and no one else. It was just about survival and getting the best possible deal because he couldn't count on anyone else looking out for him. And then along comes these two people that purport to care about what happens to him and want to take him away to a safe place where he won't be taken advantage of or treated like a slave, and of course he's going to test them and torment them because he can't believe people like them exist in the world.
And then the end! Where he risks his life to help them, because he's grown attached and values someone else's survival for a change! He was so clever setting all those guards against each other and then trying to set Xed free because he was their friend and he wanted to help them all, even if it put him in jeopardy. OHHHH. *squishes him* I wish he could've been a permanent character, damn it. That kid is so utterly talented for getting me from loathing to loving him, lol. I think in a way, some of my fondness stems from the way he kinda reminds me of Marguerite. Wait, wait, bear with me for a moment- I mean, they both have this innate suspicion of people and do their best to test the boundaries of people they end up journeying with, maybe because they both expect people to disappoint them and let them down so it's best not to trust anyone and to take advantage of them before they can stab you in the back. But along they way they grow fond of their companions and end up doing whatever they have to in order to help them. Although the kid's transformation is more immediate and obvious than Marguerite's, but hey, she's an adult and a woman, so that automatically makes her way more complicated. :D
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I’m not a Buffy fan. It always seemed so ridiculous to me. One little cheerleader taking on all these vamps and big hulking monsters and nightmarish creatures. She doesn’t even really have special abilities- okay, super strength and fast healing, but it’s negligible. In any given fight, she gets whacked around and banged up so much that I’m not really impressed by any supposed gifts endowed by her Slayer-ness. Seriously, all the monsters need to do to beat her is get a few guns and pump her full of bullets. Heck, any half-decent gang member could do as much, it wouldn’t take a supernatural force to take her down.
The main reason I caught a few eps here and there was because it was funny. But even that was heavily tinged with pain and sorrow. Her doomed relationship with Angel. Jenny Calender. Willow’s unrequited love for Xander. Her conversion to the dark side. Buffy’s mom. Stupid Dawn and her initial pain-in-the-butt superpower.
I wasn’t going to watch the later seasons because I knew there was some really horrible angst going down with Buffy’s resurrection. Just my luck that the holidays coincided with the beginning of the sixth season, huh? So I figured, hey, what the hell, not like I’m spoilt for choice here, so give it a try.
And, along with her coffin, Buffy ended up clawing my heart to shreds. I know a lot of people hate gloomy!Buffy and I thought it would piss me off but I just felt so hurt for her. I hated her stupid friends who interfered where they shouldn’t have, who messed with things beyond their understanding, just thinking about what would make them happy. I cringed when they all mobbed her, jumping around, babbling furiously, trying to tell her how grateful she should be to them, how happy she should be to be back, how everything’s going to be just brilliant and like the old days again. Thrusting the weight of their expectations on her shoulders the instant she’s back. Believing that being her friend gave them special insight into her when they were blind to the reality of the situation.
Spike, a character I never expected to like. Wasn’t he evil way back when? Then he goes and takes care of Dawn because of a promise he made Buffy. Whoa. Anyway, he was the only one that understood her, that tried to take care of her and listen to her before being pushed away by the chattering fools that claim to love her. That made her take care of them because they wanted to be told they did a good thing and saved her and brought her back whole when inside, she was grieving and empty and lost, but she had to be strong and keep up this cheery front to reassure them that they did right. That little speech she made to them, the group hug, the sentimental moment…ugh. Enough to make my stomach turn. Then Spike, her unexpected solace. Patiently letting her speak, get out all the halting, stumbling words of pain and loss. Because he was strong and didn’t need the façade her ‘friends’ did to feel that everything was okay. Because he could take what she had to exorcise and not fold beneath the burden but share in it and take some away, even if only a tiny little bit off her soul. This is the part where the actor just rocks so much because he has no lines once Buffy starts confessing her deep dark secret, but his silent presence is of the utmost importance because Buffy gets to be herself around him, to dismantle her defenses for a short period and bare herself in a way she never could to any lifelong buddies. She trusts him to handle her confession and never to breathe a word of it to anyone. It was so unexpected and so necessary for her. Buffy, the Slayer, so helpless and fragile and broken. God. This show doesn’t quite hit the BSG note of bleak misery and despair, but is it ever close to that mark.
Spike: If you are in pain, if you need anything or if there is anything I can do for you.
Buffy: You can’t.
Spike: I haven’t been to a hell dimension just of late but I do know a thing or two about torment
Buffy: I was happy. Wherever I was, I was happy, at peace. I knew that everyone I cared about was all right…I was warm, and I was loved, and I was finished. Complete. I don’t understand theology or dimensions or any of it really, but I think I was in heaven. And now I’m not. I was torn out of there, pulled out by my friends. Everything here is hard and bright and violent. Everything I feel, everything I touch…this is hell.
I think I’m going to watch this season now, despite myself, regardless of my bleeding heart. Masochism is back in fashion, I guess. And if the rumors of a Buffy movie are ever substantiated, I might even pay to watch it.
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Date: 2008-12-04 01:41 pm (UTC)Oh King Arthur is not a TV show, I talked just about The Legend lol. But Hercule and Xena were really ^^.
Continue, Andromeda is really cool too :)
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Date: 2008-12-05 12:39 am (UTC)Hee. Andromeda. I was just watching Kyle XY the other day and nearly died laughing when Andy told her secret- that her name wasn't short for Andrea, it was short for ANDROMEDA! That is so cool! I mean, okay, normal people wouldn't think so but I'd love to have a cool sci-fi name!
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Date: 2008-12-05 01:19 am (UTC)For the moment, there are not yet many photos so I made icons with pics that I have lol.
Yeeahhh her name is Andromeda, but with Andy is not surprising, she's good original person :)
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Date: 2008-12-05 01:23 am (UTC)Because there is just LOTS which is not in my post but if you want it, no problem, take it ;).
It's the same that 11 but he has text, it's all lol.
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