Hon. I'm saying this not to be mean or out of condescension, but because psychology is a hobby of mine and I live in an area with a suicide rate that is twice the national average. You are scaring me.
You need to go to a psychiatrist and get yourself checked out. Pronto. This that you're feeling is not normal, though whether it's ADD (inability to drop focus on one thing to go do something else you need to do) or depression, I can't tell. But something is wrong with the chemical mechanisms in your brain: if the problem was merely behavioral, the combination of telling yourself to be more positive and the bad consequences of your actions would have done the trick by now.
It obviously hasn't. Go see a doctor, before that wish for a euthanasia center flips into the idea to take matters into your own hands. Now. Please.
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Date: 2009-02-01 04:46 am (UTC)You need to go to a psychiatrist and get yourself checked out. Pronto. This that you're feeling is not normal, though whether it's ADD (inability to drop focus on one thing to go do something else you need to do) or depression, I can't tell. But something is wrong with the chemical mechanisms in your brain: if the problem was merely behavioral, the combination of telling yourself to be more positive and the bad consequences of your actions would have done the trick by now.
It obviously hasn't. Go see a doctor, before that wish for a euthanasia center flips into the idea to take matters into your own hands. Now. Please.
DragonLady