Lol, I fell into it by accident! First, my aunt offered the services of her school counselor, who’s a good friend and someone that’s helped her out during tough times, and then the government people told me that I was eligible for free counseling and I figured…why not?
I don’t believe therapy is going to change me radically or do anything to really alter or improve my situation, but I do think that talking things out with unbiased strangers could be some help. Not in the sense that it would stop me throwing myself off a bridge if I was at that point [which I’m not] but that it would clear up some issues of mine.
I know you’re around to lend a sympathetic shoulder and I truly value that, this counseling thing in no way takes the place of the support you and the others have given. I just kinda feel that it would be interesting to see what viewpoint a stranger with no knowledge or stake in the matter has to offer. Whether being removed from it all, with no personal attachment to me or any of my family, would change what I’ve been hearing from other people.
I’m not saying I think any of you have been lying to me or sugarcoating what you really think- although I appreciate it if you have, I would just dissolve like a tissue in water if I discovered I had disgraced myself in your eyes- but I think people are kinder and more tolerant of a friend’s flaws and I’m curious what someone who isn’t fond of me might think. Does that make sense?
Texas! Wow, that is a change and a half! I think it sounds vaguely familiar, but I can't remember any details. Why Texas? Do you know people there or do you have job opportunities there or something? *makes mental note to scour your LJ for clues*
Lol, okay, so FOR ONCE your awesome!sentence-making skills went a little wonky 'coz that thing with digging the hole and whatnot...doesn't work for me. But you're still hilariously accurate and on the money 99.99% of the time so don't worry. :P
can't you make your grandmother and parents see that you'd like your stay with your grandma be more permanent?
I don't want to hope too much at the moment, but Ma's dropping hints that if I just bide my time, when things blow over, maybe we could discuss the idea again. I'm not going to get worked up about it in case it falls through, but I think she wanted to give me some sense that things have a chance of changing and improving if I just go with the flow and hang on for now. It's just she wants to try and preserve the family bond and all that, so letting me move in sends the wrong message and it kinda puts her in an awkward position of taking sides against her daughter, so I understand her reasoning. Fingers crossed the deal's on the table again a few months down the line when it's not so crazy with the parentals.
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Date: 2010-03-28 11:32 pm (UTC)I don’t believe therapy is going to change me radically or do anything to really alter or improve my situation, but I do think that talking things out with unbiased strangers could be some help. Not in the sense that it would stop me throwing myself off a bridge if I was at that point [which I’m not] but that it would clear up some issues of mine.
I know you’re around to lend a sympathetic shoulder and I truly value that, this counseling thing in no way takes the place of the support you and the others have given. I just kinda feel that it would be interesting to see what viewpoint a stranger with no knowledge or stake in the matter has to offer. Whether being removed from it all, with no personal attachment to me or any of my family, would change what I’ve been hearing from other people.
I’m not saying I think any of you have been lying to me or sugarcoating what you really think- although I appreciate it if you have, I would just dissolve like a tissue in water if I discovered I had disgraced myself in your eyes- but I think people are kinder and more tolerant of a friend’s flaws and I’m curious what someone who isn’t fond of me might think. Does that make sense?
Texas! Wow, that is a change and a half! I think it sounds vaguely familiar, but I can't remember any details. Why Texas? Do you know people there or do you have job opportunities there or something? *makes mental note to scour your LJ for clues*
Lol, okay, so FOR ONCE your awesome!sentence-making skills went a little wonky 'coz that thing with digging the hole and whatnot...doesn't work for me. But you're still hilariously accurate and on the money 99.99% of the time so don't worry. :P
can't you make your grandmother and parents see that you'd like your stay with your grandma be more permanent?
I don't want to hope too much at the moment, but Ma's dropping hints that if I just bide my time, when things blow over, maybe we could discuss the idea again. I'm not going to get worked up about it in case it falls through, but I think she wanted to give me some sense that things have a chance of changing and improving if I just go with the flow and hang on for now. It's just she wants to try and preserve the family bond and all that, so letting me move in sends the wrong message and it kinda puts her in an awkward position of taking sides against her daughter, so I understand her reasoning. Fingers crossed the deal's on the table again a few months down the line when it's not so crazy with the parentals.